1 00:00:27,069 --> 00:00:28,111 - Once upon a time, 2 00:00:28,111 --> 00:00:29,947 I had a mum who told me everything. 3 00:00:32,241 --> 00:00:36,328 You know, I knew about her lovers and her break-ups. 4 00:00:36,328 --> 00:00:37,412 We'd go to these parties 5 00:00:37,412 --> 00:00:40,958 and I'd notice strangers who were flirting with her and... 6 00:00:40,958 --> 00:00:42,084 You know, I'd watch... 7 00:00:42,084 --> 00:00:43,669 I'd watch her life from under tables 8 00:00:43,669 --> 00:00:47,631 and I'd listen in from my bed and... 9 00:00:47,631 --> 00:00:48,840 You know, we used to cuddle up 10 00:00:48,840 --> 00:00:51,176 and she'd tell me her thoughts about the world. 11 00:00:58,225 --> 00:01:01,353 [GROANS AND HEAVY BREATHING] 12 00:01:28,463 --> 00:01:30,882 [SCHOOL BELL RINGS] 13 00:02:22,184 --> 00:02:24,394 In my family, we made decisions together. 14 00:02:27,939 --> 00:02:29,775 I felt like an adult. 15 00:02:36,990 --> 00:02:38,950 DAUGHTER: No fucking way. 16 00:02:38,950 --> 00:02:40,827 Dad, mum's is left. 17 00:02:40,827 --> 00:02:41,912 - Right, strap your helmet on. 18 00:02:41,912 --> 00:02:44,581 - Can you imagine, just you and me living together, 19 00:02:44,581 --> 00:02:46,291 all the time? 20 00:02:46,291 --> 00:02:47,417 Like, for how long? 21 00:02:47,417 --> 00:02:48,710 - Yeah I'm not going to answer anything 22 00:02:48,710 --> 00:02:51,046 until you put your helmet on properly, yeah? 23 00:02:51,046 --> 00:02:52,923 - I want to tell her something. 24 00:02:52,923 --> 00:02:54,299 - What? 25 00:02:54,299 --> 00:02:56,051 - Private. 26 00:02:56,051 --> 00:02:57,719 Between me and mum. 27 00:02:57,719 --> 00:02:58,762 - Ah. 28 00:03:00,263 --> 00:03:01,390 - When did you decide this? 29 00:03:01,390 --> 00:03:03,100 - Fuck, I didn't decide any of this, alright? 30 00:03:03,100 --> 00:03:05,060 She was supposed to tell you herself. 31 00:03:22,869 --> 00:03:25,622 - Mum? 32 00:03:25,622 --> 00:03:26,665 Mum? 33 00:03:26,665 --> 00:03:28,375 MOTHER: Wait one. 34 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:32,045 Hang on, Honey. 35 00:03:32,045 --> 00:03:33,463 - Hey. 36 00:03:33,463 --> 00:03:36,800 Tom's been telling the biggest bunch of lies. 37 00:03:36,800 --> 00:03:38,135 What do you mean? 38 00:03:38,135 --> 00:03:41,513 He said that I'm going to live with him full-time now. 39 00:03:41,513 --> 00:03:44,099 I mean, I love dad and all, 40 00:03:44,099 --> 00:03:47,561 but can you imagine even for a little while? 41 00:03:47,561 --> 00:03:51,565 Also, I've got something I really want to tell you. 42 00:03:54,401 --> 00:03:55,485 Mum. 43 00:03:58,196 --> 00:04:00,323 Mum, open the door. 44 00:04:02,367 --> 00:04:03,660 Mum! 45 00:04:19,050 --> 00:04:21,761 - I can give you some pamphlets and books if you like. 46 00:04:21,761 --> 00:04:23,013 It'll set out the steps. 47 00:04:23,013 --> 00:04:25,932 Um, I'll take hormones, take a male name... 48 00:04:25,932 --> 00:04:27,809 - Have you seen my cardigan? 49 00:04:27,809 --> 00:04:29,060 That new one? 50 00:04:29,060 --> 00:04:30,312 - She's not listening. 51 00:04:30,312 --> 00:04:32,105 DAUGHTER: No, I get it. You feel like a man. 52 00:04:32,105 --> 00:04:33,815 You want to become a man. 53 00:04:33,815 --> 00:04:35,817 You need a little space. 54 00:04:35,817 --> 00:04:37,944 - Look, you don't have to leave right now. 55 00:04:37,944 --> 00:04:39,029 Can we sit and talk about it? 56 00:04:39,029 --> 00:04:40,572 - I get it, mum. It's okay. 57 00:04:42,199 --> 00:04:44,451 Have you washed it? 58 00:04:44,451 --> 00:04:45,535 - I don't know. 59 00:04:45,535 --> 00:04:46,703 - Harry. 60 00:04:49,206 --> 00:04:50,332 Harry? 61 00:04:51,625 --> 00:04:53,293 [GROANS] 62 00:04:53,293 --> 00:04:55,545 Have you seen my red cardi? 63 00:04:55,545 --> 00:04:57,672 [LAUGHS] 64 00:04:58,757 --> 00:04:59,799 Hey. 65 00:05:04,262 --> 00:05:06,932 - Cold. - Give it to me. 66 00:05:06,932 --> 00:05:09,559 - You can fuck off. 67 00:05:15,607 --> 00:05:16,733 Warmer now. 68 00:05:20,070 --> 00:05:22,864 Has she told you yet? 69 00:05:22,864 --> 00:05:23,907 - You knew? 70 00:05:27,327 --> 00:05:30,372 Everyone knew except me. 71 00:05:30,372 --> 00:05:33,458 - My sister should just get a fucking strap on. 72 00:05:35,168 --> 00:05:37,796 Get a fucking strap on, woman. 73 00:05:49,224 --> 00:05:50,475 - Get off. 74 00:05:50,475 --> 00:05:52,060 MOTHER: We need to talk to Billie. 75 00:05:52,060 --> 00:05:56,106 - Until your mum grows a bit more hair on her chest... 76 00:05:56,106 --> 00:05:58,358 she doesn't want you around. 77 00:05:58,358 --> 00:06:00,569 TOM: Yeah, exactly what we need. 78 00:06:00,569 --> 00:06:03,989 HARRY: Shipping you off to chef man here. 79 00:06:03,989 --> 00:06:06,032 - Yeah, and you work late. 80 00:06:06,032 --> 00:06:07,367 You're never home. 81 00:06:07,367 --> 00:06:09,953 TOM: I'll make it work. 82 00:06:09,953 --> 00:06:11,246 For how long? 83 00:06:15,917 --> 00:06:18,128 - Yeah, for how long, brother? 84 00:06:18,128 --> 00:06:21,298 JANE: Well, top surgery can happen in about nine months, 85 00:06:21,298 --> 00:06:23,008 maybe longer. 86 00:06:23,008 --> 00:06:25,844 Full effects of testosterone can take years. 87 00:06:25,844 --> 00:06:27,721 It's a long process. 88 00:06:27,721 --> 00:06:29,472 - How long? 89 00:06:29,472 --> 00:06:31,057 - With your dad? 90 00:06:31,057 --> 00:06:32,392 BILLIE: Yeah. 91 00:06:36,479 --> 00:06:37,522 A year. 92 00:06:39,232 --> 00:06:40,942 I was thinking a year. 93 00:06:48,450 --> 00:06:50,118 - My mum always used to tell me 94 00:06:50,118 --> 00:06:53,121 how much of a drag it was to breast feed me. 95 00:06:55,040 --> 00:06:58,752 You know, I was a hungry child and I bit. 96 00:07:00,879 --> 00:07:03,590 But she'd always tell me that she'd never loved anyone 97 00:07:03,590 --> 00:07:07,177 or anything in her life more than she did then. 98 00:07:10,013 --> 00:07:11,514 I loved my mum. 99 00:07:12,599 --> 00:07:14,976 I wanted my mum to be happy. 100 00:07:16,102 --> 00:07:22,275 JANE: [SINGING] ♪ Thinking of you all the while more and more ♪ 101 00:07:22,275 --> 00:07:28,740 ♪ Longing for that cheeky smile That I adore ♪ 102 00:07:28,740 --> 00:07:34,788 ♪ Keep the love that's growing In your eyes so true ♪ 103 00:07:34,788 --> 00:07:37,123 - You're not kicking Harry out, are you? 104 00:07:37,123 --> 00:07:38,833 JANE: He's an adult. - He's an idiot. 105 00:07:38,833 --> 00:07:41,795 - I just need my life to be simple right now, Bill. 106 00:07:46,591 --> 00:07:48,301 I'm not sure I can finish this now. 107 00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:49,344 I'll have it ready for you 108 00:07:49,344 --> 00:07:52,472 next time you come around, okay? 109 00:07:52,472 --> 00:07:54,432 - Next time I come around? 110 00:07:58,144 --> 00:08:00,313 A year. 111 00:08:01,856 --> 00:08:04,150 - Look... 112 00:08:04,150 --> 00:08:06,861 how about we make a promise to each other? 113 00:08:06,861 --> 00:08:09,406 How about every week we set aside some time 114 00:08:09,406 --> 00:08:12,826 to be with each other, just you and me. 115 00:08:12,826 --> 00:08:16,579 You could come over after school and we'll drop everything 116 00:08:16,579 --> 00:08:19,207 and it'll be our time together. 117 00:08:19,207 --> 00:08:21,418 How does that sound? 118 00:08:21,418 --> 00:08:23,670 - Every week? 119 00:08:23,670 --> 00:08:27,507 - Same time, every week, without fail. 120 00:08:27,507 --> 00:08:29,217 - Every Tuesday? 121 00:08:31,594 --> 00:08:32,887 Do you promise? 122 00:08:34,848 --> 00:08:35,932 - I promise. 123 00:08:41,312 --> 00:08:44,107 There are just so many things that I should have said. 124 00:08:44,107 --> 00:08:45,734 You know there were so many things 125 00:08:45,734 --> 00:08:47,861 that I just wasn't clear about and... 126 00:08:47,861 --> 00:08:52,198 JANE: ♪ Keep the love that's Growing in your eyes so true ♪ 127 00:08:52,198 --> 00:08:54,701 - These are all the things I should have said before now. 128 00:08:54,701 --> 00:08:57,454 ♪ You are the one My heart can cheer ♪ 129 00:08:57,454 --> 00:09:01,541 ♪ You just you ♪ 130 00:09:06,004 --> 00:09:08,173 DOCTOR: So at the moment, because it's under Medicare, 131 00:09:08,173 --> 00:09:10,300 prior to surgery being approved... 132 00:09:10,300 --> 00:09:14,262 something called Real Life experience is required. 133 00:09:14,262 --> 00:09:17,098 Do you know about Real Life Experience, Billie? 134 00:09:17,098 --> 00:09:19,726 - Yeah, I've told her about RLE. 135 00:09:19,726 --> 00:09:21,436 - Good. So you must understand 136 00:09:21,436 --> 00:09:23,730 that before we can prescribe hormones, 137 00:09:23,730 --> 00:09:26,191 your mum must continue to come to us for assessment. 138 00:09:26,191 --> 00:09:28,485 - Second session now. 139 00:09:28,485 --> 00:09:29,569 DOCTOR: I think this whole process 140 00:09:29,569 --> 00:09:31,946 should take about two or three months. 141 00:09:31,946 --> 00:09:34,991 Then after about six months, we can look at surgery. 142 00:09:34,991 --> 00:09:38,703 Female-to-male chest reconstruction surgery. 143 00:09:38,703 --> 00:09:42,290 Hysterectomy can follow, if that's what you want. 144 00:09:42,290 --> 00:09:44,125 - What's a hysterectomy? 145 00:09:44,125 --> 00:09:47,087 - It's where they take the uterus out. 146 00:09:47,087 --> 00:09:49,672 DOCTOR: Now, I understand you've taken a male name. 147 00:09:49,672 --> 00:09:53,134 What do you think about your mum's new name, Billie? 148 00:09:53,134 --> 00:09:55,011 James is a lovely name. 149 00:09:55,011 --> 00:09:56,596 Hello, James. 150 00:09:56,596 --> 00:09:58,264 JANE: Hello. 151 00:10:02,018 --> 00:10:03,561 Thanks. 152 00:10:06,481 --> 00:10:08,608 - So, do I call you Dad now? 153 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:14,155 - Whatever you're comfortable with, I suppose. 154 00:10:18,785 --> 00:10:21,037 - Dad. 155 00:10:21,037 --> 00:10:24,499 When will I see you next, Dad? 156 00:10:25,583 --> 00:10:28,503 Dad, dad, dad, dad. 157 00:10:28,503 --> 00:10:29,629 Dad. 158 00:10:31,589 --> 00:10:34,259 - Next week, same time. 159 00:10:34,259 --> 00:10:36,469 Eat with your chopsticks, not with your fingers. 160 00:10:36,469 --> 00:10:38,555 - It tastes better... 161 00:10:38,555 --> 00:10:40,557 Dad. 162 00:10:40,557 --> 00:10:42,517 - It's rude... 163 00:10:42,517 --> 00:10:43,601 Billie. 164 00:10:48,898 --> 00:10:50,024 - Ow, that hurt. - It did not. 165 00:10:50,024 --> 00:10:52,152 Eat properly. 166 00:11:02,912 --> 00:11:04,831 BILLIE: Mum? 167 00:11:04,831 --> 00:11:07,250 Harry? 168 00:11:07,250 --> 00:11:09,168 Uncle Harry? 169 00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:14,525 [DOOR SLAM] 170 00:12:24,577 --> 00:12:26,621 JANE: You know, you shouldn't be missing school because of me. 171 00:12:26,621 --> 00:12:29,123 It's not the point. 172 00:12:29,123 --> 00:12:31,292 - I just thought we could hang out. 173 00:12:31,292 --> 00:12:32,669 - Yeah well, I've got appointments before 174 00:12:32,669 --> 00:12:34,712 and then after I've got to work. 175 00:12:42,095 --> 00:12:44,013 - Nice sideburns. 176 00:12:47,058 --> 00:12:49,143 - Look, I can't keep having the school call 177 00:12:49,143 --> 00:12:51,938 saying you're skipping out. 178 00:12:51,938 --> 00:12:54,816 - I thought we'd have more time together. 179 00:12:54,816 --> 00:12:57,151 - Let's just stick to an agreed time. 180 00:12:57,151 --> 00:12:58,569 Four till ten? 181 00:12:58,569 --> 00:12:59,696 BILLIE: Sure. 182 00:12:59,696 --> 00:13:01,864 Four till ten. 183 00:13:01,864 --> 00:13:03,074 - You promise? 184 00:13:06,911 --> 00:13:08,329 Just promise, will you? 185 00:13:08,329 --> 00:13:10,790 - Okay, okay, I promise. 186 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:12,792 - And stay out of my stuff. 187 00:13:25,263 --> 00:13:26,305 [SIGH] 188 00:13:52,623 --> 00:13:54,167 - What? 189 00:13:54,167 --> 00:13:57,462 - What are you eating so fast for? 190 00:13:57,462 --> 00:14:00,423 - What do you do on the other nights? 191 00:14:00,423 --> 00:14:01,924 - Not much. 192 00:14:01,924 --> 00:14:03,801 I work. 193 00:14:03,801 --> 00:14:05,344 - Do you go out? 194 00:14:05,344 --> 00:14:06,929 - Nah, not yet. 195 00:14:09,015 --> 00:14:10,516 - You will. 196 00:14:20,693 --> 00:14:22,362 - Jesus. 197 00:14:22,362 --> 00:14:24,655 This house is so fucking cold. 198 00:14:31,454 --> 00:14:34,457 Got another exciting night planned together? 199 00:14:55,728 --> 00:14:57,355 - I'll take back what you don't want. 200 00:14:57,355 --> 00:14:59,357 Dad won't even know what's missing. 201 00:14:59,357 --> 00:15:00,817 Frida! 202 00:15:00,817 --> 00:15:02,819 How long are you here for? 203 00:15:02,819 --> 00:15:03,861 - Dad? 204 00:15:03,861 --> 00:15:04,904 - Just for tonight, remember? 205 00:15:04,904 --> 00:15:06,364 And then it's back to mum's tomorrow. 206 00:15:06,364 --> 00:15:08,032 - Back to mum's tomorrow. 207 00:15:08,032 --> 00:15:09,909 I get to sleep in your bed. 208 00:15:11,452 --> 00:15:12,495 HARRY: What's this? 209 00:15:14,705 --> 00:15:17,875 Ingredients: scissors, wool crepe, spirit gum, 210 00:15:17,875 --> 00:15:19,585 pencil eyeliner, mascara? 211 00:15:19,585 --> 00:15:21,337 - It'll be fun. 212 00:15:23,673 --> 00:15:26,801 And then he turns around and goes "Salt-water thief! 213 00:15:26,801 --> 00:15:29,011 You sir, are a notable pirate!" 214 00:15:29,011 --> 00:15:30,429 And the other one comes in and goes 215 00:15:30,429 --> 00:15:33,182 "Don't call me names, sir!" 216 00:15:42,817 --> 00:15:43,985 - Adam's Apple. 217 00:15:49,490 --> 00:15:51,200 - You're still into women, right? 218 00:15:51,200 --> 00:15:52,785 JAMES: Yeah, of course. 219 00:15:52,785 --> 00:15:53,828 - But if you are with them, 220 00:15:53,828 --> 00:15:55,997 are they a lesbian, or are they straight? 221 00:16:00,209 --> 00:16:02,587 - I don't want to be with anyone yet. 222 00:16:02,587 --> 00:16:04,213 BILLIE: When then? 223 00:16:04,213 --> 00:16:06,841 - When I'm a man. 224 00:16:06,841 --> 00:16:08,384 - I thought you were a man now. 225 00:16:25,193 --> 00:16:26,444 - Didn't you have any dinner? 226 00:16:28,237 --> 00:16:29,447 Nup. 227 00:16:49,592 --> 00:16:51,010 - Hey. 228 00:16:51,010 --> 00:16:52,178 - Hey. 229 00:17:02,146 --> 00:17:03,356 JAMES: ...well because of the vacuum and stuff 230 00:17:03,356 --> 00:17:06,817 but it feels kind of peaceful. 231 00:17:06,817 --> 00:17:09,195 There's a great view too. 232 00:17:09,195 --> 00:17:11,113 Hey, I've lost weight. 233 00:17:11,113 --> 00:17:12,531 - Really? 234 00:17:12,531 --> 00:17:13,991 - Yeah, really really. 235 00:17:16,369 --> 00:17:18,996 I was checking out binders the other day because, 236 00:17:18,996 --> 00:17:21,082 well, I thought mine had stretched out... 237 00:17:21,082 --> 00:17:23,793 Now it looks like I've just lost weight... 238 00:17:23,793 --> 00:17:26,462 but you know how I was getting hot and I hate the heat... 239 00:18:18,681 --> 00:18:20,683 - Sorry. 240 00:18:22,143 --> 00:18:24,729 - Have you told anyone? 241 00:18:24,729 --> 00:18:26,355 - Nuh-uh. 242 00:18:26,355 --> 00:18:29,317 No one. I haven't told anyone. 243 00:18:29,317 --> 00:18:30,526 - Good. 244 00:18:30,526 --> 00:18:32,611 - I don't even know your names, so... 245 00:18:34,363 --> 00:18:35,948 [SCHOOL BELL RINGS] 246 00:18:40,119 --> 00:18:42,163 - Josh. 247 00:18:51,839 --> 00:18:53,674 - Jasmin. 248 00:18:53,674 --> 00:18:56,719 - Josh and Jasmin? 249 00:18:56,719 --> 00:18:59,096 Josh and Jasmin. Jasmin and Josh. 250 00:18:59,096 --> 00:19:01,349 - Fuck off then. 251 00:19:01,349 --> 00:19:02,391 - Oh, no, no. 252 00:19:02,391 --> 00:19:05,061 I was thinking about my mum. 253 00:19:05,061 --> 00:19:07,229 My mum's name starts with a J, 254 00:19:07,229 --> 00:19:08,647 and so when I was growing up, 255 00:19:08,647 --> 00:19:11,692 I always wanted my name to start with a J. 256 00:19:11,692 --> 00:19:15,363 It just feels like a better way to start to a name... 257 00:19:15,363 --> 00:19:17,448 with a J rather than a B. 258 00:19:17,448 --> 00:19:18,532 Billie. 259 00:19:20,284 --> 00:19:22,203 You know, growing up, the only Billies I knew 260 00:19:22,203 --> 00:19:23,913 were pet dogs. 261 00:19:29,168 --> 00:19:31,796 So you wanna play a game? 262 00:19:31,796 --> 00:19:33,172 - Sure. - Yeah. 263 00:19:34,799 --> 00:19:35,841 - I'm so, so sorry. 264 00:19:35,841 --> 00:19:38,260 I completely lost track of time. 265 00:19:38,260 --> 00:19:40,638 JANE: [ON PHONE]: It's okay, Honey. Don't worry about it. 266 00:19:40,638 --> 00:19:42,765 - No, I'm so sorry. 267 00:19:42,765 --> 00:19:44,016 JANE: What were you doing? 268 00:19:44,016 --> 00:19:47,228 - I'm on my way now. I'll be like 30 minutes. 269 00:19:47,228 --> 00:19:48,437 JANE: Look, by the time you get here, 270 00:19:48,437 --> 00:19:49,980 we'll only have a couple hours together 271 00:19:49,980 --> 00:19:53,109 and then I'll have to drive you home. 272 00:19:53,109 --> 00:19:54,735 Just go straight to Tom's. 273 00:19:54,735 --> 00:19:55,778 - Really? 274 00:19:55,778 --> 00:19:58,072 I'm literally on my way now. 275 00:19:58,072 --> 00:19:59,240 JANE: It's okay, Hon. 276 00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:01,242 If I go to work early I'll finish early. 277 00:20:01,242 --> 00:20:02,493 It'll be good. 278 00:20:02,493 --> 00:20:03,869 - Are you sure? 279 00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:05,663 JANE: Yeah, it'll be good 280 00:20:05,663 --> 00:20:08,165 to have an early night for once. 281 00:20:08,165 --> 00:20:09,208 - Okay. 282 00:20:10,793 --> 00:20:13,295 Well, I'll see you next week? 283 00:20:13,295 --> 00:20:14,463 JANE: I'll see you then. 284 00:20:14,463 --> 00:20:16,882 Love you. 285 00:20:16,882 --> 00:20:19,093 - I love you too. 286 00:20:19,093 --> 00:20:21,011 I'm so sorry. 287 00:20:38,404 --> 00:20:40,072 - Can't you just hit it to me? 288 00:20:40,072 --> 00:20:42,158 - What, you don't want to play properly? 289 00:20:42,158 --> 00:20:43,909 BILLIE: This is supposed to be fun 290 00:20:43,909 --> 00:20:46,370 and instead you're just making fun of me. 291 00:20:46,370 --> 00:20:48,164 Making me run all over the fucking court. 292 00:20:48,164 --> 00:20:50,124 I'm trying to say something. 293 00:20:53,586 --> 00:20:55,671 You never fucking listen to me. 294 00:20:59,759 --> 00:21:01,385 Is this about last week? 295 00:21:04,013 --> 00:21:06,515 You were the one who was late. 296 00:21:06,515 --> 00:21:08,017 I just thought it would be easier 297 00:21:08,017 --> 00:21:09,393 if we just skipped it. 298 00:21:09,393 --> 00:21:12,313 - And I'm just saying that I'm really sorry 299 00:21:12,313 --> 00:21:15,107 and I never want to miss hanging out with you. 300 00:21:15,107 --> 00:21:16,233 Never. 301 00:21:18,652 --> 00:21:22,907 - Okay, well, let's just make sure we never miss out again. 302 00:21:22,907 --> 00:21:25,493 - Okay, exactly. 303 00:21:25,493 --> 00:21:27,077 Let's just make sure. 304 00:21:27,077 --> 00:21:28,287 - Okay, let's. 305 00:21:28,287 --> 00:21:30,372 - Good. 306 00:21:30,372 --> 00:21:32,583 Now, do you want to play or what? 307 00:21:32,583 --> 00:21:34,376 BILLIE: Yes. 308 00:21:44,887 --> 00:21:46,597 - Hey, open your mouth. 309 00:21:46,597 --> 00:21:48,724 - Why? - Just open your mouth. 310 00:21:48,724 --> 00:21:49,808 Wider. 311 00:21:51,936 --> 00:21:56,232 - Oh. I've got spit all over my mouth. 312 00:21:56,232 --> 00:21:57,441 Mmmm. 313 00:21:57,441 --> 00:21:59,693 Now the other side. 314 00:21:59,693 --> 00:22:01,946 - What does it taste like? 315 00:22:01,946 --> 00:22:04,073 - Minty fresh. 316 00:22:04,073 --> 00:22:05,533 - No, I mean... 317 00:22:05,533 --> 00:22:06,867 what does he taste like? 318 00:22:08,285 --> 00:22:09,912 - Well, why don't you try? 319 00:22:12,206 --> 00:22:13,832 - Okay. 320 00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:20,297 [SCHOOL BELL RINGS] 321 00:22:20,297 --> 00:22:22,591 Ah shit, I've gotta go. 322 00:22:22,591 --> 00:22:24,468 - What, really? - Yeah. 323 00:22:24,468 --> 00:22:26,595 - No, you don't. 324 00:22:26,595 --> 00:22:28,180 - Yes I do. 325 00:22:29,515 --> 00:22:32,101 - You know this is the last time we have here? 326 00:22:32,101 --> 00:22:33,185 - What do you mean? 327 00:22:33,185 --> 00:22:36,814 - Well, 'cos it's the play this weekend 328 00:22:36,814 --> 00:22:40,526 and then us year 11s go on holiday next week. 329 00:22:40,526 --> 00:22:42,987 - What, so we can't come here anymore? 330 00:22:42,987 --> 00:22:44,196 - No more rehearsals. 331 00:22:44,196 --> 00:22:45,364 - That was the whole point. 332 00:22:48,993 --> 00:22:51,203 - I really have to go. 333 00:22:57,251 --> 00:22:58,794 JASMINE: Your loss. 334 00:23:25,654 --> 00:23:29,158 [GROANS] 335 00:23:29,158 --> 00:23:30,200 - Hi. 336 00:23:32,536 --> 00:23:34,204 You have to go back? 337 00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:37,875 - I couldn't stay forever. 338 00:23:54,683 --> 00:23:57,019 - No, I mean, I can't believe it... 339 00:23:57,019 --> 00:24:01,023 at this point... 340 00:24:01,023 --> 00:24:05,361 lunch time hook-ups, pleasuring a beautiful woman. 341 00:24:05,361 --> 00:24:08,948 - Maybe I could pleasure you some time. 342 00:24:08,948 --> 00:24:11,575 I'm taking all the pleasure. 343 00:24:11,575 --> 00:24:14,870 - But it is my pleasure. 344 00:24:14,870 --> 00:24:16,246 - Charmer. 345 00:24:23,879 --> 00:24:26,507 - You're just a lovely surprise, that's all. 346 00:24:49,697 --> 00:24:51,323 - Hi. 347 00:24:51,323 --> 00:24:52,408 - Hey! 348 00:24:52,408 --> 00:24:54,535 I'll be out in a tic. 349 00:24:54,535 --> 00:24:56,161 - Okay. 350 00:25:01,166 --> 00:25:03,419 - Okay, look at this. 351 00:25:03,419 --> 00:25:05,546 - So, whenever I meet another person 352 00:25:05,546 --> 00:25:07,965 with a transgender parent, 353 00:25:07,965 --> 00:25:14,346 ah, one of the things that we often talk about is... 354 00:25:14,346 --> 00:25:19,852 the amazing gift of knowing that our parent has chosen 355 00:25:19,852 --> 00:25:22,896 to live an authentic life. 356 00:25:22,896 --> 00:25:24,481 - What do you think about that? 357 00:25:27,401 --> 00:25:30,028 You know, what is an authentic life? 358 00:25:32,614 --> 00:25:34,908 Is this an authentic life? 359 00:25:51,216 --> 00:25:53,051 - Oh, cool. 360 00:25:53,051 --> 00:25:55,137 Your first testosterone shot. 361 00:25:55,137 --> 00:25:56,180 - Yep, this morning. 362 00:25:56,180 --> 00:25:57,389 - Awesome. 363 00:25:57,389 --> 00:25:58,932 - About fucking time. 364 00:25:58,932 --> 00:25:59,975 - Champagne. 365 00:26:01,310 --> 00:26:03,479 So the doctor said everything was fine, then? 366 00:26:03,479 --> 00:26:05,189 What, I mean, obviously. 367 00:26:05,189 --> 00:26:08,442 - Yep. I passed all the tests, so to speak. 368 00:26:08,442 --> 00:26:10,652 It's really happening. I'm on the T. 369 00:26:10,652 --> 00:26:12,237 - Here's to bigger clits. 370 00:26:12,237 --> 00:26:13,363 - Harry. 371 00:26:13,363 --> 00:26:14,406 JAMES: It's okay, sweetheart, 372 00:26:14,406 --> 00:26:15,824 nothing could spoil my mood tonight. 373 00:26:15,824 --> 00:26:18,827 So ha ha, fuck you. 374 00:26:20,287 --> 00:26:22,539 - Hey, Harry, can you drive me home tonight? 375 00:26:24,750 --> 00:26:28,128 - You have dinner and you hang out, 376 00:26:28,128 --> 00:26:31,548 and then you leave your house and go to your other house. 377 00:26:31,548 --> 00:26:32,674 - Yep. 378 00:26:35,427 --> 00:26:37,262 - This is ridiculous. 379 00:26:37,262 --> 00:26:39,807 It's just fucking ridiculous. 380 00:26:41,016 --> 00:26:42,893 What time are you supposed to leave Jane's... 381 00:26:42,893 --> 00:26:45,187 fucking James's anyway? 382 00:26:45,187 --> 00:26:47,022 - Ten. 383 00:26:47,022 --> 00:26:48,315 - We're already late. 384 00:26:51,026 --> 00:26:53,111 - It's okay. I told Dad twelve. 385 00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:11,255 JAMES: Things might start happening straight away. 386 00:27:11,255 --> 00:27:12,923 BILLIE: Like what? 387 00:27:12,923 --> 00:27:17,594 JAMES: Um, my muscle mass will increase and... 388 00:27:17,594 --> 00:27:21,723 oh, my hair is going to get coarser and grow more. 389 00:27:21,723 --> 00:27:23,976 BILLIE: Even facial hair? 390 00:27:23,976 --> 00:27:26,937 JAMES: Um, that'll probably take longer. 391 00:27:26,937 --> 00:27:31,900 Just keep an eye out because I could even start going bald. 392 00:27:31,900 --> 00:27:33,777 - Is that good? 393 00:27:33,777 --> 00:27:35,612 - What do you mean? 394 00:27:35,612 --> 00:27:39,158 - Well, if you go bald, it'll mean it's working, right? 395 00:27:39,158 --> 00:27:42,077 I mean, only men go bald, so if you go bald, 396 00:27:42,077 --> 00:27:44,413 is that going to make you happy? 397 00:27:44,413 --> 00:27:46,832 If I start seeing that, should I mention it? 398 00:27:46,832 --> 00:27:49,418 I mean, do you want me to only mention the good things or...? 399 00:27:49,418 --> 00:27:54,798 - Um, how about, if you see it you just let me know, okay? 400 00:27:57,050 --> 00:27:59,636 This is my voice on testosterone... 401 00:27:59,636 --> 00:28:03,181 um, one week. 402 00:28:03,181 --> 00:28:07,644 Hey, I got some pictures of some guys off the net too 403 00:28:07,644 --> 00:28:10,689 and these are guys that, like me, 404 00:28:10,689 --> 00:28:15,319 were born biologically female but they've taken testosterone 405 00:28:15,319 --> 00:28:16,737 so... 406 00:28:16,737 --> 00:28:19,698 - What, is that all from just taking testosterone? 407 00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:22,117 - Yep. 408 00:28:22,117 --> 00:28:24,536 BILLIE: My gosh. 409 00:28:24,536 --> 00:28:27,247 You wouldn't even know. 410 00:28:27,247 --> 00:28:28,749 - Nah. 411 00:28:30,751 --> 00:28:32,794 It's good, huh? 412 00:28:37,341 --> 00:28:38,550 - This one here. 413 00:28:43,597 --> 00:28:45,515 Okay, now start walking forward. 414 00:28:45,515 --> 00:28:48,226 - Harry, Harry, can I just open my eyes? 415 00:28:48,226 --> 00:28:49,269 - No. 416 00:28:55,525 --> 00:28:57,235 Okay, now open your eyes. 417 00:28:57,235 --> 00:28:58,946 - Oh, my God. 418 00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:03,992 - Don't burn the place down and don't go on the roof. 419 00:29:03,992 --> 00:29:05,035 Okay? 420 00:29:10,332 --> 00:29:13,460 What the fuck is this, anyway? 421 00:29:13,460 --> 00:29:15,671 You boozin' with buds or something? 422 00:29:15,671 --> 00:29:17,756 - No. 423 00:29:17,756 --> 00:29:18,882 - Well, what then? 424 00:29:20,592 --> 00:29:22,552 You're having an E party? 425 00:29:22,552 --> 00:29:25,764 You're doing crank. 426 00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:27,349 Do you want me to get you anything? 427 00:29:27,349 --> 00:29:29,518 - I don't need anything. 428 00:29:29,518 --> 00:29:32,145 - What is this? 429 00:29:32,145 --> 00:29:33,689 - It's just friends from school 430 00:29:33,689 --> 00:29:35,774 and we just need somewhere to hang out. 431 00:29:38,193 --> 00:29:42,280 - You want me to drop you off each Tuesday? 432 00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:43,448 Yeah? 433 00:29:47,035 --> 00:29:49,287 - Yes. 434 00:29:49,287 --> 00:29:51,707 Please. 435 00:29:51,707 --> 00:29:53,250 That'd be good. 436 00:29:55,377 --> 00:29:57,254 - It'll be our little secret. 437 00:30:09,266 --> 00:30:10,559 JAMES: Do you notice anything? 438 00:30:12,561 --> 00:30:16,648 - Mm, I don't know? 439 00:30:16,648 --> 00:30:19,317 Is it meant to have changed in a week? 440 00:30:19,317 --> 00:30:20,610 - I don't know. 441 00:30:31,663 --> 00:30:33,540 JASMINE: Here? BILLIE: Yep. 442 00:30:33,540 --> 00:30:36,043 Just in front of the camera. 443 00:30:36,043 --> 00:30:37,878 Okay. And you can sit down in it. 444 00:30:42,341 --> 00:30:43,759 - Josh, come too. 445 00:30:43,759 --> 00:30:47,179 BILLIE: No, Josh can go after. 446 00:30:47,179 --> 00:30:48,972 Just you first. 447 00:30:56,188 --> 00:30:57,522 - What are you going to ask me? 448 00:31:03,111 --> 00:31:07,949 BILLIE: Are you guys together like boyfriend and girlfriend? 449 00:31:07,949 --> 00:31:09,409 - Mmm, no. 450 00:31:09,409 --> 00:31:12,079 - It's quite intoxicating really. 451 00:31:12,079 --> 00:31:14,414 BILLIE: So are you a man now? 452 00:31:14,414 --> 00:31:16,124 - I'm nearly a man. 453 00:31:16,124 --> 00:31:17,918 - It wasn't that stupid, you know, 454 00:31:17,918 --> 00:31:23,173 idea of rose petals on a bed, listening to Barry White. 455 00:31:23,173 --> 00:31:24,716 It wasn't that. 456 00:31:24,716 --> 00:31:25,801 BILLIE: Was it good? 457 00:31:29,221 --> 00:31:31,181 - Yeah. 458 00:31:31,181 --> 00:31:35,644 No, no, it wasn't actually. 459 00:31:35,644 --> 00:31:37,145 [GROANING] 460 00:31:40,524 --> 00:31:43,610 - That one. BILLIE: What noise do you make? 461 00:31:43,610 --> 00:31:48,406 [GROANING] 462 00:31:48,406 --> 00:31:49,866 - Good quality clothes. 463 00:31:49,866 --> 00:31:51,201 I've got a beard. 464 00:31:51,201 --> 00:31:53,870 I walk with, you know, intent. 465 00:31:53,870 --> 00:31:54,913 You're a man. 466 00:31:54,913 --> 00:31:57,541 It's like, you're smooth, man. 467 00:31:57,541 --> 00:31:59,876 BILLIE: Okay, have you ever gone down on a girl? 468 00:31:59,876 --> 00:32:01,753 - Yeah. BILLIE: What did it taste like? 469 00:32:01,753 --> 00:32:03,046 - Tangy. 470 00:32:03,046 --> 00:32:04,673 BILLIE: Good? 471 00:32:04,673 --> 00:32:05,924 - Tangy. 472 00:32:05,924 --> 00:32:08,969 BILLIE: Bad. - Tangy. Just... 473 00:32:08,969 --> 00:32:11,972 [LAUGHING] 474 00:32:11,972 --> 00:32:14,057 BILLIE: Do you like that I'm filming you? 475 00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:18,854 - I don't mind it. 476 00:32:18,854 --> 00:32:20,564 BILLIE: What do you think this is? 477 00:32:20,564 --> 00:32:22,190 - I think this is... 478 00:32:22,190 --> 00:32:23,984 I think this is interesting. 479 00:32:27,028 --> 00:32:28,738 JAMES: The thing is, I see myself everyday 480 00:32:28,738 --> 00:32:32,284 so I'm not sure if I'll notice. 481 00:32:32,284 --> 00:32:34,119 BILLIE: Is your voice a bit deeper? 482 00:32:38,748 --> 00:32:41,001 - I've started shaving. 483 00:32:41,001 --> 00:32:42,752 BILLIE: Your face? - Yeah. 484 00:32:42,752 --> 00:32:45,172 Shaving it to make the hairs grow thicker. 485 00:32:45,172 --> 00:32:48,008 - Aah... is it working? 486 00:32:48,008 --> 00:32:50,969 - Oh, I mean I can only feel like nudey-bum but... 487 00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:53,680 HARRY: Ding ding. Time. 488 00:32:53,680 --> 00:32:54,931 - Hey, hang on. 489 00:32:56,433 --> 00:32:58,643 - See ya. - See ya. 490 00:33:07,444 --> 00:33:10,655 BILLIE: Are you more like your mum or your dad? 491 00:33:10,655 --> 00:33:12,824 - I don't know my dad, so... 492 00:33:12,824 --> 00:33:15,619 and I never want to be my mum. 493 00:33:15,619 --> 00:33:18,747 BILLIE: Okay, Jas, take your top off. 494 00:33:27,047 --> 00:33:28,548 Lips. 495 00:33:29,633 --> 00:33:31,009 - Don't hover. 496 00:33:31,009 --> 00:33:32,260 You can kiss them. 497 00:33:37,641 --> 00:33:39,893 Ah, don't lick them. 498 00:33:39,893 --> 00:33:42,479 But you can bite, like a nibble. 499 00:33:45,732 --> 00:33:47,859 BILLIE: Breasts. 500 00:33:47,859 --> 00:33:52,405 - You can't tweak or jiggle them or suck on them. 501 00:33:52,405 --> 00:33:55,200 But you can cup them. 502 00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:57,494 And you can cum on them. 503 00:34:15,720 --> 00:34:18,098 - Now I'm going to have to start again. 504 00:34:18,098 --> 00:34:19,224 LISA: Huh? 505 00:34:21,643 --> 00:34:23,812 - I show that to my kid, remember? 506 00:34:23,812 --> 00:34:25,021 LISA: I've met your brother. 507 00:34:25,021 --> 00:34:27,941 - Yeah I know, he lives with me. 508 00:34:27,941 --> 00:34:30,735 LISA: But you haven't told your daughter about me? 509 00:34:32,529 --> 00:34:34,406 - No. 510 00:34:34,406 --> 00:34:37,117 - Well, now's a good time to introduce me. 511 00:34:40,245 --> 00:34:42,497 Hi, Billie. My name's Lisa... 512 00:34:42,497 --> 00:34:44,583 - Oh fuck. 513 00:34:44,583 --> 00:34:46,501 LISA: I'm fucking... fucking your mother. 514 00:34:53,049 --> 00:34:55,051 BILLIE: You look tanned this week. 515 00:34:57,304 --> 00:34:58,930 What, you can't see that? 516 00:35:00,974 --> 00:35:02,017 Nuh. 517 00:35:08,023 --> 00:35:10,317 But you look older. 518 00:35:17,365 --> 00:35:21,077 BILLIE: Josh, what does it feel like to be inside a girl? 519 00:35:21,077 --> 00:35:22,787 - Do you hear something? 520 00:35:22,787 --> 00:35:24,331 BILLIE: Answer the question. 521 00:35:24,331 --> 00:35:26,541 - There it is again. I swear I hear something. 522 00:35:26,541 --> 00:35:29,252 - Ha ha. Yeah, like a high pitch squeal? 523 00:35:29,252 --> 00:35:31,963 Like a slug being baked. 524 00:35:31,963 --> 00:35:34,424 - Fuck you then. 525 00:35:34,424 --> 00:35:36,134 - Maybe if the slug came a little closer, 526 00:35:36,134 --> 00:35:38,219 we would be able to hear it. 527 00:35:38,219 --> 00:35:39,763 BILLIE: What does it feel like? 528 00:35:55,236 --> 00:35:57,822 - I don't know. 529 00:35:57,822 --> 00:35:59,908 Like a warm loaf of bread. 530 00:36:39,447 --> 00:36:41,825 - Wake up. 531 00:36:41,825 --> 00:36:45,120 Merry Christmas, my beautiful pumpkin. 532 00:36:47,789 --> 00:36:50,792 - Merry Christmas. 533 00:36:50,792 --> 00:36:52,544 How was it? 534 00:36:52,544 --> 00:36:53,962 - We didn't go. 535 00:36:55,630 --> 00:36:57,382 We stayed home. 536 00:37:00,301 --> 00:37:04,097 My folks are not pleased about their new 38-year-old son. 537 00:37:04,097 --> 00:37:06,641 No, they are not. 538 00:37:06,641 --> 00:37:09,185 Lose a daughter, gain a son. 539 00:37:09,185 --> 00:37:11,479 It's like James got married to himself. 540 00:37:18,027 --> 00:37:19,863 Your mum should never HAVE said anything to them, 541 00:37:19,863 --> 00:37:22,157 though, that's the thing. 542 00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:25,243 I mean, he just looks like a dyke at the moment anyway 543 00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:27,871 and it took them long enough to accept that. 544 00:37:27,871 --> 00:37:28,913 The fuckers. 545 00:37:31,249 --> 00:37:34,002 Hey, hey, you got to wake up. 546 00:37:35,962 --> 00:37:38,214 - You stink of smoke. 547 00:37:40,008 --> 00:37:41,968 - I think I smell like pussy. 548 00:37:41,968 --> 00:37:43,803 - Ohhhh. 549 00:37:43,803 --> 00:37:45,680 [LAUGHS] 550 00:37:48,349 --> 00:37:50,059 Billie, you've got to wake up. 551 00:37:51,895 --> 00:37:53,897 Billie... 552 00:37:55,148 --> 00:37:59,402 I'm not so sure I can take you tonight. 553 00:37:59,402 --> 00:38:02,739 Billie, because um... 554 00:38:02,739 --> 00:38:04,783 I am... 555 00:38:04,783 --> 00:38:06,993 I am very high... 556 00:38:06,993 --> 00:38:10,872 and I will continue to be so. 557 00:38:14,834 --> 00:38:16,085 Billie. 558 00:38:18,421 --> 00:38:21,007 I'll tell James about your secret. 559 00:38:22,967 --> 00:38:24,010 - Okay. 560 00:38:24,010 --> 00:38:25,512 Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay. 561 00:38:25,512 --> 00:38:28,223 I'm up. 562 00:38:28,223 --> 00:38:31,434 I'm up, I'm awake. 563 00:38:31,434 --> 00:38:32,602 What? 564 00:38:35,355 --> 00:38:38,566 - I've played in every position, right? 565 00:38:38,566 --> 00:38:41,694 I've batted, I bowled, I fielded, 566 00:38:41,694 --> 00:38:44,030 I batted for the other team. 567 00:38:44,030 --> 00:38:46,115 I always knew what I wanted. 568 00:38:46,115 --> 00:38:47,700 Not like your mum, you know. 569 00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:51,704 And Billie, that's the thing. 570 00:38:51,704 --> 00:38:54,666 I've got to tell you something that's really important. 571 00:38:56,417 --> 00:38:58,545 - What? 572 00:38:58,545 --> 00:39:01,548 - Don't be like your mum. 573 00:39:04,342 --> 00:39:07,804 Because, you look up to her so much. 574 00:39:07,804 --> 00:39:10,306 And you can't be like your mum. 575 00:39:11,766 --> 00:39:12,851 - Like a man? 576 00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:18,523 - No. Jesus, you're retarded sometimes. 577 00:39:18,523 --> 00:39:21,818 I mean, unless you want to be. 578 00:39:24,070 --> 00:39:25,947 - I don't know. 579 00:39:25,947 --> 00:39:27,574 How would I know? 580 00:39:27,574 --> 00:39:31,619 - Well, just don't take so fucking long to find out. 581 00:39:31,619 --> 00:39:33,246 You don't have to wait for inspiration. 582 00:39:33,246 --> 00:39:35,582 You're not fucking Rembrandt. 583 00:39:35,582 --> 00:39:37,250 You take your clothes off 584 00:39:37,250 --> 00:39:39,961 and you roll around in the paint. 585 00:39:39,961 --> 00:39:41,045 Promise. 586 00:39:43,172 --> 00:39:45,758 - Okay, okay, okay. 587 00:39:45,758 --> 00:39:48,011 Okay, okay, yes. 588 00:39:48,011 --> 00:39:51,097 Now Harry, you just... 589 00:39:51,097 --> 00:39:53,683 just go and let me sleep. 590 00:39:56,477 --> 00:39:57,854 - Okay. 591 00:40:07,822 --> 00:40:10,283 HARRY: Hey, chef man! 592 00:40:10,283 --> 00:40:13,453 Happy Christmas, mother-fucker! 593 00:40:21,836 --> 00:40:23,087 - Hey, kiddo. 594 00:40:23,087 --> 00:40:24,422 - Hey. - Are you ready to go? 595 00:40:24,422 --> 00:40:25,965 - Yep. 596 00:40:25,965 --> 00:40:27,300 See ya. 597 00:40:27,300 --> 00:40:29,177 - See ya. 598 00:40:31,846 --> 00:40:34,432 - Merry Christmas, Billie. 599 00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:36,225 - Merry Christmas, mum. 600 00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:38,603 See ya. 601 00:40:38,603 --> 00:40:40,146 TOM: See ya, Babe. 602 00:40:46,361 --> 00:40:51,407 JASMIN: ♪ Dinner parities And Christmas crackers... ♪ 603 00:40:51,407 --> 00:40:56,371 ♪ Stupid family Christmas time... ♪ 604 00:41:05,672 --> 00:41:08,549 ♪ Christmas sucks balls ♪ 605 00:41:25,108 --> 00:41:31,030 - So I can bite them but I can't lick them? 606 00:41:31,030 --> 00:41:33,366 And I can't hover over them? 607 00:41:33,366 --> 00:41:35,368 - That's what I said. 608 00:42:17,618 --> 00:42:20,163 Look. I'm sorry, okay? 609 00:42:20,163 --> 00:42:21,956 - Why? It's not your fault. 610 00:42:21,956 --> 00:42:24,876 - Well then what? 611 00:42:24,876 --> 00:42:27,879 You're so grumpy today. 612 00:42:27,879 --> 00:42:30,715 - It's just a testosterone thing. 613 00:42:30,715 --> 00:42:32,592 - What? Being fucking grumpy? 614 00:42:32,592 --> 00:42:33,634 - No. 615 00:42:33,634 --> 00:42:35,511 There are just complications. 616 00:42:38,014 --> 00:42:40,600 - Like what? 617 00:42:40,600 --> 00:42:44,854 - Like... like this. 618 00:42:44,854 --> 00:42:47,940 Like this. 619 00:42:47,940 --> 00:42:49,150 That's what. 620 00:42:52,820 --> 00:42:56,616 - Hey. Hurry up with your secret ladies business. 621 00:42:58,534 --> 00:42:59,994 - I'm waiting on some test results 622 00:42:59,994 --> 00:43:02,163 so we just have to wait and see. 623 00:43:29,941 --> 00:43:34,111 [MOBILE PHONE RINGS] 624 00:43:41,035 --> 00:43:42,495 - What's wrong? 625 00:43:42,495 --> 00:43:45,748 JAMES: Jesus, good morning to you, too. 626 00:43:45,748 --> 00:43:49,877 - Well, you never call and you knew I'd be sleeping... 627 00:43:49,877 --> 00:43:51,838 so what's up? 628 00:44:00,263 --> 00:44:02,181 James? 629 00:44:02,181 --> 00:44:04,267 - I've had to stop testosterone. 630 00:44:06,435 --> 00:44:08,521 It's got something to do with over-production 631 00:44:08,521 --> 00:44:11,149 of liver enzymes. 632 00:44:12,650 --> 00:44:13,943 Well, you saw me. 633 00:44:15,361 --> 00:44:17,905 - So, are you going to stop the treatments for good? 634 00:44:19,991 --> 00:44:21,868 - It's... 635 00:44:21,868 --> 00:44:26,289 apparently it's fucking rare but there've been other cases. 636 00:44:26,289 --> 00:44:28,875 If I'd stayed on T, I would've died. 637 00:44:30,751 --> 00:44:33,546 - I'm so sorry, J. 638 00:44:40,428 --> 00:44:42,763 - I don't know how to tell Billie. 639 00:44:42,763 --> 00:44:43,973 TOM: Jesus. 640 00:44:43,973 --> 00:44:46,684 - Do you know that was my first thought... 641 00:44:46,684 --> 00:44:48,895 how the fuck am I going to tell her? 642 00:44:48,895 --> 00:44:51,981 - She's gonna want to move back in with you. 643 00:44:51,981 --> 00:44:53,774 You know that, right? 644 00:44:53,774 --> 00:44:54,817 - I can't... 645 00:44:54,817 --> 00:44:56,152 I can't do it yet. 646 00:44:56,152 --> 00:44:57,194 Please. 647 00:45:00,740 --> 00:45:03,576 I just need time to think. 648 00:45:07,163 --> 00:45:08,956 Tom? 649 00:45:11,751 --> 00:45:14,420 - I await your decision. 650 00:45:14,420 --> 00:45:16,714 [CALL TERMINATED TONE] 651 00:45:20,635 --> 00:45:22,011 - You should go to another doctor. 652 00:45:22,011 --> 00:45:23,804 You can't just trust one doctor... 653 00:45:23,804 --> 00:45:26,724 like there has to be other ways. 654 00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:28,184 Right? 655 00:45:28,184 --> 00:45:29,518 - No. 656 00:45:33,189 --> 00:45:34,440 I don't know. 657 00:45:35,900 --> 00:45:37,985 - So, what now? 658 00:45:42,531 --> 00:45:44,325 - I know this has been hard. 659 00:45:44,325 --> 00:45:45,910 For all of us. 660 00:45:47,662 --> 00:45:50,581 I... 661 00:45:50,581 --> 00:45:54,168 I still need time to work it out. 662 00:45:55,211 --> 00:45:56,921 I think we should stick to... 663 00:45:56,921 --> 00:45:59,382 I'd like stick to our Tuesdays. 664 00:46:09,308 --> 00:46:12,395 - I was always praised for my sophistication, 665 00:46:12,395 --> 00:46:16,148 my maturity, my ability to adapt. 666 00:46:17,483 --> 00:46:18,901 But it was never true. 667 00:46:20,903 --> 00:46:22,989 You just have no choice, do you? 668 00:46:29,578 --> 00:46:33,249 MAN: [ON T.V.] ... about 200 kilometers north of Adelaide in 1880 669 00:46:33,249 --> 00:46:36,836 and then his father got a job in Sydney. 670 00:46:45,386 --> 00:46:46,429 Hey. 671 00:46:49,181 --> 00:46:52,309 Do you want me to make dinner tonight? 672 00:46:54,770 --> 00:46:57,815 BILLIE: [RECORDING] Take your top off. 673 00:46:57,815 --> 00:46:59,316 [MURMURING] 674 00:46:59,316 --> 00:47:02,862 [CHUCKLING] 675 00:47:02,862 --> 00:47:04,447 Take your top off. 676 00:47:06,866 --> 00:47:10,870 HARRY: It's time to get up, get up, get out of bed. 677 00:47:14,623 --> 00:47:16,876 Hoola-hoop time, 678 00:47:18,461 --> 00:47:20,463 hoola-hoop time, 679 00:47:22,214 --> 00:47:23,966 hoola-hoop time. 680 00:47:29,764 --> 00:47:31,140 - Hey. 681 00:47:31,140 --> 00:47:32,183 - Hey. 682 00:47:35,144 --> 00:47:37,980 - Is everything okay? 683 00:47:37,980 --> 00:47:39,273 - Yeah. 684 00:48:06,634 --> 00:48:08,344 [DOOR OPENING] 685 00:48:12,306 --> 00:48:13,557 - Mum? 686 00:48:15,601 --> 00:48:16,977 Mum? 687 00:48:23,859 --> 00:48:25,528 What the fuck, Mum. 688 00:48:25,528 --> 00:48:27,113 Where were you? 689 00:49:03,732 --> 00:49:04,859 [KNOCK ON DOOR] 690 00:49:04,859 --> 00:49:05,943 - Let's go, Bill. 691 00:49:05,943 --> 00:49:07,403 School. 692 00:49:22,209 --> 00:49:23,252 - Beautiful day. 693 00:49:25,504 --> 00:49:26,797 - Yeah. 694 00:49:36,348 --> 00:49:38,017 - Well? 695 00:49:44,982 --> 00:49:46,859 - Okay, watch this. 696 00:49:49,486 --> 00:49:51,488 MAN 1: [ON RECORDING] We're currently on a mission to go down 697 00:49:51,488 --> 00:49:55,117 to the Pine Island Glacier in West Antarctica. 698 00:49:55,117 --> 00:49:57,411 When looking out of the window of the aircraft, 699 00:49:57,411 --> 00:50:01,290 we noticed a fairly large crack in the ice shelf. 700 00:50:04,293 --> 00:50:06,587 MAN 2: These things happen on a semi-regular basis 701 00:50:06,587 --> 00:50:08,380 in both the Arctic and the Antarctic, 702 00:50:08,380 --> 00:50:10,174 but it's still a fairly large event. 703 00:50:10,174 --> 00:50:12,426 So we wanted to make sure we capture 704 00:50:12,426 --> 00:50:15,012 as much of that process as we could. 705 00:50:16,222 --> 00:50:18,057 BILLIE: So much stuff happens in a year. 706 00:50:18,057 --> 00:50:19,934 You know, the Earth... 707 00:50:21,810 --> 00:50:24,063 And there was... 708 00:50:24,063 --> 00:50:28,275 There were civil wars in Syria and Libya and um... 709 00:50:28,275 --> 00:50:29,527 You know, and in Antarctica, 710 00:50:29,527 --> 00:50:31,862 a glacier the size of New York split off... 711 00:50:33,489 --> 00:50:35,324 Or maybe it didn't split off. 712 00:50:36,951 --> 00:50:38,160 Fuck. 713 00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:40,162 - I can't remember who's party it was 714 00:50:40,162 --> 00:50:42,748 but we were against the door, 'cos there was no lock, 715 00:50:42,748 --> 00:50:45,376 and he pulled my pants down straight away. 716 00:50:45,376 --> 00:50:47,461 JOSH: Can I do it? 717 00:50:47,461 --> 00:50:48,504 - Nuh. 718 00:50:55,970 --> 00:50:57,763 Like that? 719 00:50:57,763 --> 00:50:59,556 - A little rougher. 720 00:50:59,556 --> 00:51:02,726 Like you want to show me how much you want me. 721 00:51:07,273 --> 00:51:10,025 JOSH: C'mon, guys. When can I have a go? 722 00:51:10,025 --> 00:51:12,945 - Josh, just wait a sec. 723 00:51:12,945 --> 00:51:14,571 - But maybe because it was Valentine's Day 724 00:51:14,571 --> 00:51:17,032 and his girlfriend was in the other room. 725 00:51:17,032 --> 00:51:19,702 He wanted to do it pretty quickly. 726 00:51:19,702 --> 00:51:25,624 So I let him, you know, put it in me straight away. 727 00:51:25,624 --> 00:51:27,584 Here... grab my leg. 728 00:51:30,421 --> 00:51:33,340 Just put your fingers here. 729 00:51:33,340 --> 00:51:35,843 JOSH: C'mon, guys. I'm dying over here. 730 00:51:35,843 --> 00:51:38,345 JASMINE: Is that right? 731 00:51:38,345 --> 00:51:40,848 He kept on turning his head away from me. 732 00:51:40,848 --> 00:51:43,559 I forced it back and got him to kiss me. 733 00:51:51,358 --> 00:51:53,152 BILLIE: Okay, let's go. 734 00:51:53,152 --> 00:51:55,487 No hang on, I'll do this. 735 00:51:55,487 --> 00:51:56,905 Okay, and go. 736 00:52:04,663 --> 00:52:06,123 - You have to do it rough. 737 00:52:06,123 --> 00:52:07,166 - Okay. 738 00:52:10,044 --> 00:52:11,503 - Okay. 739 00:52:11,503 --> 00:52:13,714 Jas, you weren't wearing jeans. 740 00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:20,054 JOSH: Not easy. Okay. 741 00:52:20,054 --> 00:52:22,014 - Okay. Right, hold my leg. 742 00:52:22,014 --> 00:52:23,265 - Okay, come here. 743 00:52:54,755 --> 00:52:57,424 JASMINE: Billie... what do you think? 744 00:52:57,424 --> 00:52:58,467 - Ah. 745 00:53:00,010 --> 00:53:02,054 - Come on, what do you like? 746 00:53:02,054 --> 00:53:03,972 - I, uh... 747 00:53:03,972 --> 00:53:05,516 I don't know. 748 00:53:09,061 --> 00:53:11,063 - Come on, Billie. 749 00:53:11,063 --> 00:53:13,273 - Dude, we've told you everything. 750 00:53:13,273 --> 00:53:14,817 You gotta give us something. 751 00:53:17,694 --> 00:53:19,613 - Um... 752 00:53:53,439 --> 00:53:56,817 So does this mean you're still transitioning? 753 00:53:56,817 --> 00:53:58,694 - Yeah, of course. 754 00:54:00,571 --> 00:54:02,781 - It's just I don't remember you telling me. 755 00:54:04,324 --> 00:54:05,701 - Don't worry. 756 00:54:05,701 --> 00:54:07,286 It'll happen. 757 00:54:07,286 --> 00:54:08,495 Somehow. 758 00:54:12,458 --> 00:54:14,084 This'll get bigger. 759 00:54:21,967 --> 00:54:23,010 - Is Harry here? 760 00:54:25,053 --> 00:54:26,638 - He's never here. 761 00:54:39,985 --> 00:54:41,653 HARRY: ...I hit the soap dish with my arse... 762 00:54:41,653 --> 00:54:43,906 and broke the soap dish and fell into the bath 763 00:54:43,906 --> 00:54:46,408 but when I landed I also passed out, 764 00:54:46,408 --> 00:54:47,910 but not because I hit my head, 765 00:54:47,910 --> 00:54:50,579 but because I thought I'd cut my arse. 766 00:54:53,749 --> 00:54:55,250 - And then just ride naked? 767 00:54:55,250 --> 00:54:57,127 - Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. 768 00:54:57,127 --> 00:55:00,297 Or dressed like a sperm. 769 00:55:00,297 --> 00:55:02,090 JOSH: Are you two brother and sister? 770 00:55:02,090 --> 00:55:03,926 HARRY: She's my niece. 771 00:55:03,926 --> 00:55:05,761 JASMINE: You look like you could be her brother. 772 00:55:05,761 --> 00:55:07,721 - She might as well be my sister. 773 00:55:07,721 --> 00:55:10,682 I mean, I take care of her like she's my sister. 774 00:55:10,682 --> 00:55:14,394 Make sure my little Billie doesn't get hurt. 775 00:55:14,394 --> 00:55:17,397 You taking care of my Bill? 776 00:55:17,397 --> 00:55:20,651 Are you using protection? 777 00:55:23,195 --> 00:55:26,532 You're not using your mum's strap-on, are you? 778 00:55:27,741 --> 00:55:29,409 If you are, I really hope you're washing 779 00:55:29,409 --> 00:55:32,120 that filthy fucking thing. 780 00:55:32,120 --> 00:55:33,705 It's unsanitary. 781 00:55:33,705 --> 00:55:36,333 JOSH: No... no strap-ons here. 782 00:55:36,333 --> 00:55:38,335 - Is your mum a lesbian or something? 783 00:55:40,963 --> 00:55:43,382 - Why are you here, Harry? 784 00:55:43,382 --> 00:55:45,175 So, you just hang out here, right? 785 00:55:45,175 --> 00:55:48,845 You shoot the shit and talk about your... 786 00:55:48,845 --> 00:55:51,390 your stuff? 787 00:55:51,390 --> 00:55:52,641 What would you do if you didn't have 788 00:55:52,641 --> 00:55:55,727 this glorious place I gave you, hey? 789 00:55:55,727 --> 00:55:57,896 Where would you go? 790 00:55:57,896 --> 00:55:59,439 I suppose you could go to your mum's, Billie, 791 00:55:59,439 --> 00:56:01,108 couldn't you? 792 00:56:01,108 --> 00:56:02,693 James is always at work at this time 793 00:56:02,693 --> 00:56:05,404 so he wouldn't know a thing. 794 00:56:05,404 --> 00:56:06,697 - Who's James? 795 00:56:11,410 --> 00:56:12,786 - Okay. 796 00:56:16,832 --> 00:56:19,251 JAMES: ...because I've already been seeing the psychiatrist. 797 00:56:19,251 --> 00:56:21,169 So basically, due to the changes 798 00:56:21,169 --> 00:56:22,296 [MOBILE PHONE MESSAGE ALERT] 799 00:56:22,296 --> 00:56:24,214 in the international standard of care... 800 00:56:24,214 --> 00:56:28,427 I think I can get chest reconstruction surgery 801 00:56:28,427 --> 00:56:31,555 without being on hormones. 802 00:56:31,555 --> 00:56:34,349 So what I wanted to ask was... 803 00:56:34,349 --> 00:56:36,560 do you want to come? 804 00:56:36,560 --> 00:56:38,478 - To the surgery? 805 00:56:38,478 --> 00:56:41,148 - To the psychiatrist. 806 00:56:41,148 --> 00:56:43,775 For approval in a couple of weeks. 807 00:56:48,780 --> 00:56:50,782 Somewhere you'd rather be? 808 00:56:52,075 --> 00:56:53,660 - Yeah, sure, mum. Book me in. 809 00:57:09,134 --> 00:57:10,677 - Awesome, right? 810 00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:12,638 - Yes. 811 00:57:12,638 --> 00:57:14,306 - This is so weird. 812 00:57:14,306 --> 00:57:17,434 [TELEPHONE RINGS] 813 00:57:23,774 --> 00:57:25,359 - What? 814 00:57:25,359 --> 00:57:27,444 Harry, it's Tom. 815 00:57:27,444 --> 00:57:28,487 - Chef man. 816 00:57:28,487 --> 00:57:29,529 TOM: Listen, is Billie there? 817 00:57:29,529 --> 00:57:30,989 She's not answering any of my calls. 818 00:57:30,989 --> 00:57:32,032 - Go fish. 819 00:57:32,032 --> 00:57:33,325 She's not here, Pastry Pete. 820 00:57:33,325 --> 00:57:34,701 TOM: Where are they? 821 00:57:34,701 --> 00:57:36,578 - Don't know. 822 00:57:36,578 --> 00:57:38,872 TOM: I'll call Jane then. 823 00:57:38,872 --> 00:57:41,416 - Um, bad idea. 824 00:57:41,416 --> 00:57:43,710 TOM: Why? Look, I need to talk to Billie, man. 825 00:57:43,710 --> 00:57:45,504 I came off my scooter. 826 00:57:45,504 --> 00:57:47,297 HARRY: Shit, dude. You alright? 827 00:57:47,297 --> 00:57:48,632 - Cheers mate. 828 00:57:48,632 --> 00:57:49,925 Yeah, no I'm good. 829 00:57:49,925 --> 00:57:51,635 I'm alright I was just sort of showing off 830 00:57:51,635 --> 00:57:53,345 at a friend's place and came off... 831 00:57:53,345 --> 00:57:54,721 and scraped up my left side. 832 00:57:54,721 --> 00:57:57,683 But I need to talk to Billie 'cos... 833 00:57:57,683 --> 00:57:59,351 I don't know if I'm going to be home. 834 00:57:59,351 --> 00:58:01,812 So I'll just call Jane, eh? 835 00:58:01,812 --> 00:58:04,356 HARRY: Not a good idea. 836 00:58:04,356 --> 00:58:06,441 - You keep saying that. 837 00:58:06,441 --> 00:58:07,818 HARRY: Well, she's gonna be back here anyway 838 00:58:07,818 --> 00:58:09,736 so I can just tell her then. 839 00:58:09,736 --> 00:58:12,197 - Or I could just call Jane now? 840 00:58:12,197 --> 00:58:14,574 - No, don't. 841 00:58:14,574 --> 00:58:17,703 - Dude, what the fuck's going on? 842 00:58:17,703 --> 00:58:19,162 - Ah, fuck. 843 00:58:20,539 --> 00:58:22,749 Alright, here's the deal... 844 00:58:28,839 --> 00:58:30,549 [DOOR CLOSES WITH A THUD] 845 00:58:30,549 --> 00:58:32,009 - Billie. 846 00:58:39,599 --> 00:58:41,059 Sit down, Mate. 847 00:58:44,187 --> 00:58:46,690 Why didn't you answer any of my calls? 848 00:58:50,861 --> 00:58:52,654 Listen, Harry convinced me not to call your mother 849 00:58:52,654 --> 00:58:54,406 looking for you. 850 00:58:54,406 --> 00:58:56,700 But he had to tell me why, though. 851 00:58:58,410 --> 00:58:59,870 I don't understand why you thought you had to lie to me 852 00:58:59,870 --> 00:59:02,205 about hanging out with your mates. 853 00:59:07,169 --> 00:59:09,838 Alright, we'll duke it out, you and me. 854 00:59:09,838 --> 00:59:11,923 I'm not gonna tell your mother. 855 00:59:11,923 --> 00:59:13,884 - Good. I don't want him to know. 856 00:59:13,884 --> 00:59:15,677 - Nah, you're gonna tell her. 857 00:59:17,345 --> 00:59:19,347 - It's him. 858 00:59:19,347 --> 00:59:21,391 - Fucking whatever, Bill. 859 00:59:21,391 --> 00:59:23,477 This is something you're going to sort out yourself, yeah? 860 00:59:24,519 --> 00:59:27,230 [TICKING] 861 00:59:27,230 --> 00:59:30,650 [MELANCHOLY SONG IN BACKGROUND] 862 00:59:41,244 --> 00:59:44,080 - I just don't really wear dresses like this at the moment. 863 00:59:44,080 --> 00:59:45,540 - Well, it's your birthday. 864 00:59:45,540 --> 00:59:46,583 - Okay, well can you at least get out 865 00:59:46,583 --> 00:59:48,001 so I can try something else on. 866 00:59:48,001 --> 00:59:49,795 - Okay. 867 01:00:03,850 --> 01:00:05,560 I've been thinking it might be good for me 868 01:00:05,560 --> 01:00:07,562 to start seeing people. 869 01:00:12,776 --> 01:00:13,819 - Actually, I've... 870 01:00:13,819 --> 01:00:14,861 WOMAN: Do you need a hand in there? 871 01:00:14,861 --> 01:00:16,029 - No, thank you. 872 01:00:16,029 --> 01:00:19,491 - There's this woman at work that's... 873 01:00:19,491 --> 01:00:22,077 kind of shown interest. 874 01:00:22,077 --> 01:00:23,620 - What, you're seeing someone? 875 01:00:23,620 --> 01:00:27,374 - No, that's not what I was saying. 876 01:00:29,167 --> 01:00:31,128 WOMAN: How about trying this one on? 877 01:00:31,128 --> 01:00:32,379 - Can you just give us a minute? 878 01:00:32,379 --> 01:00:33,797 WOMAN: Sure. 879 01:00:36,424 --> 01:00:37,467 - Look, I don't like any of these. 880 01:00:37,467 --> 01:00:40,095 Can we just go? 881 01:00:40,095 --> 01:00:43,473 JAMES: Did you want to try somewhere else? 882 01:00:43,473 --> 01:00:45,559 - No, just take me home. 883 01:01:06,621 --> 01:01:10,584 When we were here, this place... 884 01:01:12,377 --> 01:01:16,840 things made sense, secret and separate. 885 01:01:17,883 --> 01:01:19,718 No family. 886 01:01:21,970 --> 01:01:24,306 It was precious, that stuff. 887 01:01:25,348 --> 01:01:27,642 You know, it was mine. 888 01:01:27,642 --> 01:01:29,728 [TICKING] 889 01:01:41,990 --> 01:01:44,826 - Tell your mum, Bill. 890 01:01:44,826 --> 01:01:46,578 Just start talking. 891 01:02:03,970 --> 01:02:05,263 - Where's the mother? 892 01:02:06,681 --> 01:02:08,141 MALE PSYCHIATRIST: She's around. 893 01:02:09,392 --> 01:02:12,437 - Not enough to be in a photo with her kids though. 894 01:02:12,437 --> 01:02:14,189 PSYCHIATRIST: No, no, she's around. 895 01:02:16,191 --> 01:02:19,611 I'm glad to see you back here. 896 01:02:19,611 --> 01:02:21,196 We've spoken on the phone a few times 897 01:02:21,196 --> 01:02:23,657 but your mum's not been here for a while. 898 01:02:23,657 --> 01:02:26,159 And you, Billie, I have not seen you here for... 899 01:02:26,159 --> 01:02:27,202 ages. 900 01:02:27,202 --> 01:02:29,871 - Seven months. Yeah, it's been seven months. 901 01:02:29,871 --> 01:02:31,539 PSYCHIATRIST: Okay. 902 01:02:31,539 --> 01:02:33,917 How is everything, then? 903 01:02:33,917 --> 01:02:38,797 - Yeah, despite the hiccup, things are pretty good. 904 01:02:38,797 --> 01:02:40,006 PSYCHIATRIST: And the two of you? 905 01:02:40,006 --> 01:02:43,343 How has your time been together? 906 01:02:43,343 --> 01:02:47,347 - Yeah, it's been good. 907 01:02:47,347 --> 01:02:50,433 - Yeah, time together's been good. 908 01:02:50,433 --> 01:02:54,229 Outside of that? 909 01:02:54,229 --> 01:02:55,271 I've been lying to mum each week 910 01:02:55,271 --> 01:02:57,983 about going to Tom's at ten... 911 01:02:57,983 --> 01:02:59,776 So, that's good. 912 01:02:59,776 --> 01:03:01,361 You know, actually, I've just been going out with friends. 913 01:03:01,361 --> 01:03:02,904 You know, fucking around 914 01:03:02,904 --> 01:03:05,573 without anybody knowing where I am. 915 01:03:05,573 --> 01:03:06,866 So, you know that's... 916 01:03:06,866 --> 01:03:10,453 that's really good. 917 01:03:10,453 --> 01:03:13,373 And mum hasn't known about any of this until... 918 01:03:13,373 --> 01:03:14,416 until just now. 919 01:03:14,416 --> 01:03:20,338 So that's really fucking good, isn't it? 920 01:03:20,338 --> 01:03:22,257 And James here has been seeing someone, 921 01:03:22,257 --> 01:03:23,883 I think someone from work. 922 01:03:23,883 --> 01:03:25,218 But I don't know anything about that 923 01:03:25,218 --> 01:03:26,261 so you're going to have to ask him 924 01:03:26,261 --> 01:03:28,722 if that's been good because... 925 01:03:28,722 --> 01:03:32,892 because I've absolutely no fucking idea. 926 01:03:32,892 --> 01:03:35,103 I mean, maybe you could tell me? 927 01:03:41,985 --> 01:03:43,111 - I'm busy, guys. 928 01:03:43,111 --> 01:03:44,154 JAMES: Unbelievable. 929 01:03:44,154 --> 01:03:46,114 I mean, in front of the psychiatrist. 930 01:03:46,114 --> 01:03:48,074 Billie could've really fucked things up for me today. 931 01:03:48,074 --> 01:03:49,117 - Don't be ridiculous. 932 01:03:49,117 --> 01:03:51,369 I'm sure he deals with fucked up families all the time. 933 01:03:51,369 --> 01:03:52,746 - We gotta do this shit now, guys? 934 01:03:52,746 --> 01:03:53,788 It's busy, yeah? 935 01:03:53,788 --> 01:03:54,831 - Yeah, we have to do it now. 936 01:03:54,831 --> 01:03:56,458 It needs to be sorted out. 937 01:03:56,458 --> 01:03:58,543 - It's between you and Billie, man. 938 01:03:58,543 --> 01:03:59,919 - No, it's not. 939 01:03:59,919 --> 01:04:01,504 This has been really badly managed. 940 01:04:01,504 --> 01:04:03,923 And she's been lying to you, too, you know? 941 01:04:03,923 --> 01:04:05,508 I mean, why the fuck do you think 942 01:04:05,508 --> 01:04:08,970 I would let her stay out to 12 on a school night? 943 01:04:08,970 --> 01:04:10,972 And have you even bothered to ask her what she's been doing 944 01:04:10,972 --> 01:04:12,766 because she won't bloody tell me. 945 01:04:12,766 --> 01:04:15,769 I mean, are you even remotely worried? 946 01:04:15,769 --> 01:04:17,812 I mean, this is our daughter we're talking about. 947 01:04:17,812 --> 01:04:19,314 - Every Tuesday she's your daughter, 948 01:04:19,314 --> 01:04:20,690 I agree, yes. 949 01:04:20,690 --> 01:04:22,609 But not at any other time. 950 01:04:22,609 --> 01:04:24,277 You no longer decide what happens to Billie 951 01:04:24,277 --> 01:04:25,653 after the clock strikes ten. 952 01:04:25,653 --> 01:04:27,363 She's my responsibility then. 953 01:04:27,363 --> 01:04:28,865 - Oh well, great job. 954 01:04:28,865 --> 01:04:31,034 - Hey, this was you're fucking idea, remember? 955 01:04:31,034 --> 01:04:32,869 You've need to fucking deal with it. 956 01:04:32,869 --> 01:04:33,912 For some reason I can only guess at, 957 01:04:33,912 --> 01:04:34,954 you've chosen to be her mother 958 01:04:34,954 --> 01:04:37,707 for a mere six hours out of every week. 959 01:04:37,707 --> 01:04:39,334 That's 24 hours in a month. 960 01:04:39,334 --> 01:04:40,752 A day. 961 01:04:40,752 --> 01:04:42,212 So in the last six months, you've chosen to be her mother 962 01:04:42,212 --> 01:04:44,506 for, what, six days? 963 01:04:44,506 --> 01:04:46,091 Six days. 964 01:04:46,091 --> 01:04:48,510 Is that about right? 965 01:04:48,510 --> 01:04:50,178 You have no say, mate. 966 01:05:02,190 --> 01:05:04,192 [TICKING] 967 01:05:24,379 --> 01:05:26,256 - Is everything alright? 968 01:05:26,256 --> 01:05:27,715 I don't mind it rough... 969 01:05:27,715 --> 01:05:28,800 don't get me wrong. 970 01:05:28,800 --> 01:05:30,635 - No, don't. 971 01:05:35,140 --> 01:05:36,683 I'm bleeding. 972 01:05:39,185 --> 01:05:42,856 I just hate it. It's fucking painful. 973 01:05:42,856 --> 01:05:44,607 - For me too. 974 01:05:44,607 --> 01:05:46,526 For lots of women. 975 01:05:50,238 --> 01:05:54,242 - I used to think it was, you know, hormones. 976 01:05:54,242 --> 01:05:55,869 I didn't get it. 977 01:05:55,869 --> 01:05:57,620 - Get what? 978 01:05:57,620 --> 01:05:58,663 JAMES: That I hated it 979 01:05:58,663 --> 01:06:01,458 because I couldn't escape that I was a woman. 980 01:06:01,458 --> 01:06:04,586 I mean, this body is still... 981 01:06:06,838 --> 01:06:08,214 here. 982 01:06:09,591 --> 01:06:13,094 - I didn't realise you were getting periods again. 983 01:06:16,514 --> 01:06:17,765 - Billie thinks I've been seeing you 984 01:06:17,765 --> 01:06:20,059 for months, you know? 985 01:06:20,059 --> 01:06:23,188 Thinks that I've been lying about not seeing anyone. 986 01:06:23,188 --> 01:06:25,315 - She's a smart cookie. 987 01:06:28,818 --> 01:06:31,154 JAMES: Tom and I split when Billie was one. 988 01:06:31,154 --> 01:06:33,531 We moved houses but kept sharing them, 989 01:06:33,531 --> 01:06:36,826 trying for some strange version of a family, I guess. 990 01:06:36,826 --> 01:06:40,246 Until it was clear I was totally into women. 991 01:06:41,998 --> 01:06:44,417 In front of Billie, he said he hated me 992 01:06:44,417 --> 01:06:47,170 for being so slow to realize who I was. 993 01:06:47,170 --> 01:06:49,505 And when he finally moved out... 994 01:06:49,505 --> 01:06:51,633 demanded we share Billie. 995 01:06:53,134 --> 01:06:55,720 And then my kid brother Harry moved in. 996 01:06:55,720 --> 01:06:57,305 - Messy. 997 01:06:59,474 --> 01:07:04,103 JAMES: It was just so much change for such a little kid. 998 01:07:04,103 --> 01:07:07,440 - Awesome, right. 999 01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:08,858 JAMES: There I was, 1000 01:07:08,858 --> 01:07:12,237 "Hey, I'm a lesbian, so cool." 1001 01:07:12,237 --> 01:07:15,198 But there was something else. 1002 01:07:15,198 --> 01:07:16,783 One night it was so simple. 1003 01:07:16,783 --> 01:07:18,159 I dressed up. 1004 01:07:18,159 --> 01:07:20,411 I just decided to do it. 1005 01:07:20,411 --> 01:07:22,580 LISA: In what? 1006 01:07:22,580 --> 01:07:28,836 - Put on men's clothes, drew a beard, and there I was. 1007 01:07:28,836 --> 01:07:33,800 In the mirror, I finally recognized myself and... 1008 01:07:33,800 --> 01:07:36,386 I was a beautiful man. 1009 01:07:38,137 --> 01:07:39,931 LISA: I wish I had a photo of that. 1010 01:07:40,974 --> 01:07:42,767 JAMES: No, you don't. 1011 01:07:45,061 --> 01:07:49,774 It was so liberating but I was really scared. 1012 01:07:49,774 --> 01:07:53,236 I'd screwed Billie and Tom around so much by then. 1013 01:07:53,236 --> 01:07:56,823 So I made a decision that I'd just shelve it. 1014 01:07:58,908 --> 01:08:00,285 I mean, I couldn't do anything simple 1015 01:08:00,285 --> 01:08:02,287 to change it anyway so... 1016 01:08:02,287 --> 01:08:04,706 it wasn't important. 1017 01:08:04,706 --> 01:08:06,624 Billie was important. 1018 01:08:08,543 --> 01:08:12,130 And then, ten years later, it came screaming out at me. 1019 01:08:13,464 --> 01:08:15,967 If you can't work out how to live with yourself, 1020 01:08:15,967 --> 01:08:18,261 you might as well not be here. 1021 01:08:20,388 --> 01:08:22,765 LISA: Do you wish you were born a man? 1022 01:08:22,765 --> 01:08:23,808 JAMES: I mean, what would've happened 1023 01:08:23,808 --> 01:08:26,185 if I kept putting it off? 1024 01:08:26,185 --> 01:08:30,064 The kindest, most loving kid in the world. 1025 01:08:30,064 --> 01:08:32,525 I didn't want to resent her. 1026 01:08:32,525 --> 01:08:34,527 I just needed some time. 1027 01:08:36,946 --> 01:08:39,115 LISA: Do you wish you were born a man? 1028 01:08:40,825 --> 01:08:43,536 JAMES: Yes. 1029 01:08:43,536 --> 01:08:45,913 LISA: But then you wouldn't have had Billie. 1030 01:08:48,124 --> 01:08:50,418 JAMES: No. 1031 01:08:50,418 --> 01:08:53,004 BILLIE: I'm sick of tiptoeing but I just don't... 1032 01:08:53,004 --> 01:08:55,423 I just don't want to do this anymore. 1033 01:08:57,759 --> 01:09:00,136 - Well... 1034 01:09:00,136 --> 01:09:02,221 how about you move back in? 1035 01:09:08,311 --> 01:09:10,104 - No. 1036 01:09:10,104 --> 01:09:12,523 [TICKING] 1037 01:09:14,317 --> 01:09:17,070 [TELEPHONE RING TONE] 1038 01:09:19,280 --> 01:09:20,657 - Hey, it's Billie. 1039 01:09:20,657 --> 01:09:22,533 Leave me a message. 1040 01:09:22,533 --> 01:09:25,244 Okay, bye. 1041 01:09:25,244 --> 01:09:27,121 - Hey, it's Mum. 1042 01:09:27,121 --> 01:09:28,956 It's after five now, 1043 01:09:28,956 --> 01:09:31,501 so I'm just wondering if you're coming? 1044 01:09:31,501 --> 01:09:35,254 I haven't heard anything back from you, 1045 01:09:35,254 --> 01:09:38,383 so I'll be at home, so give me a call. 1046 01:09:39,425 --> 01:09:41,636 [TICKING] 1047 01:09:41,636 --> 01:09:44,847 [TELEPHONE RING TONE] 1048 01:09:48,017 --> 01:09:50,103 - Oh. 1049 01:09:50,103 --> 01:09:51,938 - Hey, it's Billie. 1050 01:09:51,938 --> 01:09:53,439 Leave me a message. 1051 01:09:53,439 --> 01:09:56,401 Okay, bye. 1052 01:09:56,401 --> 01:10:00,905 - Hiya, I think we should at least talk. 1053 01:10:00,905 --> 01:10:04,242 I'm not sure if you are even listening to these messages 1054 01:10:04,242 --> 01:10:07,370 and Tom's not helping, at all. 1055 01:10:07,370 --> 01:10:08,454 Um... 1056 01:10:08,454 --> 01:10:11,958 can we at least just talk? 1057 01:10:11,958 --> 01:10:14,377 [TICKING] 1058 01:10:21,676 --> 01:10:22,719 [DOOR KNOCK] 1059 01:10:25,012 --> 01:10:26,431 - Sorry I'm late. We're busy. 1060 01:10:26,431 --> 01:10:27,974 - Thanks for coming. Take a seat. 1061 01:10:27,974 --> 01:10:30,143 - Okay. 1062 01:10:30,143 --> 01:10:31,185 - I was just saying that, 1063 01:10:31,185 --> 01:10:35,398 apart from a couple of truancy incidences last year, 1064 01:10:35,398 --> 01:10:38,359 we haven't had any trouble with Billie before. 1065 01:10:38,359 --> 01:10:39,902 So, in our view, 1066 01:10:39,902 --> 01:10:41,988 this incident is out of character. 1067 01:10:41,988 --> 01:10:44,532 - Yeah well, you know, we're just as surprised as you are. 1068 01:10:44,532 --> 01:10:46,784 - Yes, it's really come out of the blue for us as well 1069 01:10:46,784 --> 01:10:48,953 so that's why we are all here. 1070 01:10:48,953 --> 01:10:50,121 - Well, we are here to help. 1071 01:10:50,121 --> 01:10:52,915 So what exactly happened? 1072 01:10:52,915 --> 01:10:57,211 - Well, Billie texted another girl in a different year, 1073 01:10:57,211 --> 01:10:59,672 Jasmin Miller, during class time. 1074 01:10:59,672 --> 01:11:02,800 And Jasmin's teacher happened to notice 1075 01:11:02,800 --> 01:11:05,511 and so he confiscated the phone. 1076 01:11:05,511 --> 01:11:10,349 And he noticed that the message was a photograph of Billie 1077 01:11:10,349 --> 01:11:13,311 in a state of nakedness. 1078 01:11:16,230 --> 01:11:18,316 - Really? 1079 01:11:18,316 --> 01:11:20,234 - And trust me, this is serious. 1080 01:11:20,234 --> 01:11:23,780 I want to make it very clear, that if you're a minor, 1081 01:11:23,780 --> 01:11:24,989 a naked photograph of yourself 1082 01:11:24,989 --> 01:11:28,326 can be regarded child pornography. 1083 01:11:28,326 --> 01:11:29,368 You know, normally 1084 01:11:29,368 --> 01:11:31,662 I would bring in the police into this straight away 1085 01:11:31,662 --> 01:11:34,332 but I'm not going to in this case. 1086 01:11:34,332 --> 01:11:36,876 I really wanted just to bring it to your attention. 1087 01:11:36,876 --> 01:11:42,465 Because a family like yours, in a unique situation... 1088 01:11:42,465 --> 01:11:44,967 I wanted to make sure you understood the consequences. 1089 01:11:44,967 --> 01:11:46,969 - Unique situation? 1090 01:11:46,969 --> 01:11:50,807 - Well, I think you have a more complicated view of life, 1091 01:11:50,807 --> 01:11:52,266 for a family like yours. 1092 01:11:52,266 --> 01:11:54,310 - What? Separated? 1093 01:11:54,310 --> 01:11:57,021 - Look, I think Billie has really good perspective, 1094 01:11:57,021 --> 01:11:58,606 if that's what you mean. 1095 01:11:58,606 --> 01:12:00,274 And I think we've equipped our daughter 1096 01:12:00,274 --> 01:12:02,068 with a better understanding of things 1097 01:12:02,068 --> 01:12:04,278 than most other parents might. 1098 01:12:04,278 --> 01:12:05,696 - Yeah, but I think it might have been 1099 01:12:05,696 --> 01:12:08,866 a confusing time for Billie lately. 1100 01:12:21,921 --> 01:12:24,382 - I'm not going through her stuff. 1101 01:12:24,382 --> 01:12:27,593 [TICKING] 1102 01:12:31,055 --> 01:12:32,265 JASMIN: You can watch for hours if you want. 1103 01:12:32,265 --> 01:12:34,308 She won't move. 1104 01:12:34,308 --> 01:12:38,646 She really doesn't do much else, but especially on a Tuesday. 1105 01:12:38,646 --> 01:12:41,482 It's her favourite TV night. 1106 01:12:41,482 --> 01:12:44,735 Packed to the Rafters , then NCIS . 1107 01:12:44,735 --> 01:12:46,487 Now The Voice is on. 1108 01:12:46,487 --> 01:12:48,406 She likes to watch that. 1109 01:12:48,406 --> 01:12:50,199 - Does she live here by herself? 1110 01:12:50,199 --> 01:12:52,118 - She has two kids. 1111 01:12:52,118 --> 01:12:54,161 A girl and a boy. 1112 01:12:54,161 --> 01:12:55,496 And if they're all home together, 1113 01:12:55,496 --> 01:12:57,415 they'll watch The Voice . 1114 01:12:59,792 --> 01:13:02,044 She hates outside. 1115 01:13:02,044 --> 01:13:04,505 She doesn't really go out much. 1116 01:13:04,505 --> 01:13:06,591 - Wouldn't child services know about this? 1117 01:13:06,591 --> 01:13:07,758 JASMIN: They cover for her. 1118 01:13:07,758 --> 01:13:11,304 They make excuses if anyone asks for her. 1119 01:13:11,304 --> 01:13:13,472 They can't afford to get in trouble at school 1120 01:13:13,472 --> 01:13:15,641 because the school always calls the parents. 1121 01:13:15,641 --> 01:13:17,143 And she won't come. 1122 01:13:17,143 --> 01:13:19,020 She can't. 1123 01:13:21,022 --> 01:13:22,940 - You have a brother? 1124 01:13:22,940 --> 01:13:24,275 JASMIN: Younger. 1125 01:13:35,411 --> 01:13:37,788 Now, what's so shit about your life 1126 01:13:37,788 --> 01:13:39,874 you haven't told us? 1127 01:13:41,876 --> 01:13:43,669 - What so shit about yours? 1128 01:13:43,669 --> 01:13:45,713 You get to do whatever you want. 1129 01:13:48,215 --> 01:13:49,925 - Oh my God... 1130 01:13:51,594 --> 01:13:53,387 you don't get it. 1131 01:13:55,014 --> 01:13:56,933 My mum's sick. 1132 01:14:02,647 --> 01:14:04,482 I'm sick of being your play-thing. 1133 01:14:04,482 --> 01:14:05,942 Fuck off. 1134 01:14:10,196 --> 01:14:12,406 [TICKING] 1135 01:14:19,872 --> 01:14:20,915 [PHONE MESSAGE TONE] 1136 01:14:31,884 --> 01:14:34,929 - Hey. It's five-thirty in the morning, 1137 01:14:34,929 --> 01:14:37,515 and I'm still jetlagged. 1138 01:14:37,515 --> 01:14:42,186 It could be the crazy little yelling man out here. 1139 01:14:45,356 --> 01:14:46,399 - Oh, can you see him? 1140 01:14:49,986 --> 01:14:54,949 Anyway, San Fran's pretty amazing. 1141 01:14:54,949 --> 01:14:55,991 I met some 1142 01:14:55,991 --> 01:14:57,618 pretty interesting trans guys already 1143 01:14:57,618 --> 01:15:01,706 and, yeah, I hope you're watching these 1144 01:15:01,706 --> 01:15:04,917 and I'll talk to you soon hopefully. 1145 01:15:13,259 --> 01:15:16,762 MAN 1: I have identified as a trans guy for many years. 1146 01:15:16,762 --> 01:15:19,098 WOMAN: I identify as gender queer. 1147 01:15:19,098 --> 01:15:20,850 MAN 2: Fuck if I know what a man is. 1148 01:15:20,850 --> 01:15:23,728 For me, it's a thing that I believed about myself 1149 01:15:23,728 --> 01:15:25,813 from before conscious memory. 1150 01:15:25,813 --> 01:15:27,898 MAN 3: I didn't know that I was trans 1151 01:15:27,898 --> 01:15:29,692 until I was about 26. 1152 01:15:29,692 --> 01:15:31,861 MAN 4: As a child too, I had a twin sister 1153 01:15:31,861 --> 01:15:33,904 so it was really easy for me to understand 1154 01:15:33,904 --> 01:15:36,866 what it looked like to be comfortable as female 1155 01:15:36,866 --> 01:15:38,868 and I was not that. 1156 01:15:38,868 --> 01:15:42,872 - You know my questions being, okay, now that I can't take T, 1157 01:15:42,872 --> 01:15:45,833 how do I kind of be the man that I see in my head 1158 01:15:45,833 --> 01:15:46,876 for me to be? 1159 01:15:46,876 --> 01:15:48,544 That I've taken this year off to do? 1160 01:15:48,544 --> 01:15:53,424 - Me, I've been on for 18 years and, you know, 1161 01:15:53,424 --> 01:16:00,014 I don't think it's necessary for gender identity. 1162 01:16:00,014 --> 01:16:03,809 WOMAN: Um, I'm not on T but I just had top surgery. 1163 01:16:03,809 --> 01:16:07,104 I'm on like day 16 after top surgery 1164 01:16:07,104 --> 01:16:09,064 and it's really fulfilling. 1165 01:16:09,064 --> 01:16:13,152 - I'm married to a man and have a seven-year-old kid 1166 01:16:13,152 --> 01:16:16,781 and I transitioned before he was born 1167 01:16:16,781 --> 01:16:19,283 so he's always known me as his dad. 1168 01:16:19,283 --> 01:16:21,368 But I have still had to come out to him 1169 01:16:21,368 --> 01:16:25,998 and help him know that I'm a different kind of dad. 1170 01:16:29,001 --> 01:16:31,462 [TICKING] 1171 01:16:31,462 --> 01:16:32,963 MAN: [ON TV] It took me a really long time 1172 01:16:32,963 --> 01:16:35,883 to feel comfortable accepting myself as a man 1173 01:16:35,883 --> 01:16:37,760 and even sometimes, after 11 years, 1174 01:16:37,760 --> 01:16:39,887 I have moments where I'm just like... 1175 01:16:39,887 --> 01:16:41,013 so crazy. 1176 01:16:41,013 --> 01:16:45,643 Not like I feel like a woman but it just feels like... 1177 01:16:45,643 --> 01:16:47,770 I don't know, I feel nervous or scared 1178 01:16:47,770 --> 01:16:51,106 about claiming that identity. 1179 01:16:52,149 --> 01:16:58,322 GIRL: [ON TV] My dad became a woman about 14 years ago 1180 01:16:58,322 --> 01:17:00,032 when I was 17, 1181 01:17:00,032 --> 01:17:03,244 and it really transformed our relationship. 1182 01:17:03,244 --> 01:17:05,329 Initially when my dad came out I said, 1183 01:17:05,329 --> 01:17:11,252 Oh, I love you no matter what, this will be fine. 1184 01:17:11,252 --> 01:17:13,587 Then, like a month or so later, 1185 01:17:13,587 --> 01:17:17,508 I realized that I was like sad about something. 1186 01:17:17,508 --> 01:17:20,761 I went to my mum, and so I told her I feel like 1187 01:17:20,761 --> 01:17:22,847 I feel a little weird about something. 1188 01:17:22,847 --> 01:17:23,889 And she said, do you think it's 1189 01:17:23,889 --> 01:17:27,601 because your dad came out to you as transgender? 1190 01:17:58,090 --> 01:18:00,259 [TICKING] 1191 01:18:11,186 --> 01:18:12,730 - Cheers. 1192 01:18:16,817 --> 01:18:20,195 So, you want me to get this camera off Harry? 1193 01:18:20,195 --> 01:18:21,238 - Yes. 1194 01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:23,198 - Because... 1195 01:18:23,198 --> 01:18:26,201 - Because he stole it from me and won't give it back. 1196 01:18:26,201 --> 01:18:29,079 - Well, what's on there? 1197 01:18:29,079 --> 01:18:30,122 - Nothing's on there. 1198 01:18:30,122 --> 01:18:32,207 I just need it for a school project. 1199 01:18:32,207 --> 01:18:35,002 - So why did he steal it? 1200 01:18:35,002 --> 01:18:36,086 - I don't know. 1201 01:18:36,086 --> 01:18:38,631 He was worried it had shit of his own on there, 1202 01:18:38,631 --> 01:18:41,508 that it would incriminate him or something. 1203 01:18:41,508 --> 01:18:43,093 I don't know. 1204 01:18:45,804 --> 01:18:47,514 Can you get it or not? 1205 01:18:54,355 --> 01:18:55,564 - Tom still letting you hang around 1206 01:18:55,564 --> 01:18:58,484 with those friends of yours? 1207 01:18:58,484 --> 01:19:00,361 - Dad lets me be an adult. 1208 01:19:00,361 --> 01:19:03,197 I am able to make my own decisions, you know. 1209 01:19:03,197 --> 01:19:06,200 - Well, sending a naked photo of yourself 1210 01:19:06,200 --> 01:19:08,285 to a relative stranger doesn't seem like 1211 01:19:08,285 --> 01:19:09,870 the best decision to me. 1212 01:19:09,870 --> 01:19:12,331 - Can you just give it a rest? 1213 01:19:12,331 --> 01:19:14,541 - Okay. 1214 01:19:14,541 --> 01:19:16,877 Why don't you come to mine and we can talk together. 1215 01:19:16,877 --> 01:19:19,171 - And how is it any different from you sending over videos 1216 01:19:19,171 --> 01:19:21,757 of your gay adventures in San Francisco? 1217 01:19:21,757 --> 01:19:23,258 - It's different. 1218 01:19:23,258 --> 01:19:26,095 You're a child, for one thing. 1219 01:19:26,095 --> 01:19:28,722 - But in a year, all of a sudden, I just won't be? 1220 01:19:28,722 --> 01:19:32,267 - A year is a long time, especially at your age. 1221 01:19:39,566 --> 01:19:41,318 - I knew this was a bad idea. 1222 01:19:42,361 --> 01:19:44,321 You can't even get my friggin' camera back. 1223 01:19:44,321 --> 01:19:45,447 - Where are you going? 1224 01:19:45,447 --> 01:19:48,367 Just sit down. 1225 01:19:48,367 --> 01:19:50,619 Let's not do this. 1226 01:20:06,218 --> 01:20:08,012 [TICKING] 1227 01:20:10,472 --> 01:20:14,184 GIRL: We also recorded with this special robot 1228 01:20:14,184 --> 01:20:18,022 that we can remote control. 1229 01:20:18,022 --> 01:20:19,606 It was really funny. 1230 01:20:19,606 --> 01:20:21,984 - That's really cheeky. 1231 01:20:24,987 --> 01:20:27,281 - Right, I'm going to take James' car. 1232 01:20:27,281 --> 01:20:29,450 I'll be able to pick him up when he gets released. 1233 01:20:29,450 --> 01:20:31,326 I'll bring him home. 1234 01:20:31,326 --> 01:20:33,078 But after that, we've all got to pitch in. 1235 01:20:33,078 --> 01:20:35,289 - Who's the emergency contact? 1236 01:20:35,289 --> 01:20:36,540 - No one's going to die. 1237 01:20:36,540 --> 01:20:39,043 - There's the risk of death in every surgery, alright. 1238 01:20:39,043 --> 01:20:41,170 Now how do we find out who the emergency contact is? 1239 01:20:41,170 --> 01:20:42,212 - Can you just promise me you'll be home 1240 01:20:42,212 --> 01:20:43,255 when he gets out, alright? 1241 01:20:43,255 --> 01:20:44,757 - Yeah, yeah, look, I'll be there, okay? 1242 01:20:44,757 --> 01:20:46,091 Sponge in hand. 1243 01:20:46,091 --> 01:20:47,343 But I'm not riding your scooter. 1244 01:20:47,343 --> 01:20:48,385 I Hate that thing. 1245 01:20:48,385 --> 01:20:49,428 - What's wrong with your car? 1246 01:20:49,428 --> 01:20:50,471 - It's dead. 1247 01:20:50,471 --> 01:20:52,556 Died. 1248 01:20:52,556 --> 01:20:54,558 Anyway, if I'm going to be the emergency contact, 1249 01:20:54,558 --> 01:20:55,851 I should take the car. 1250 01:20:55,851 --> 01:20:57,686 - Just take the damn bike, mate. 1251 01:20:57,686 --> 01:20:58,979 - I'm going to find out. 1252 01:20:58,979 --> 01:21:00,481 - Dad, can we go now? 1253 01:21:00,481 --> 01:21:01,774 - Just a sec, Honey, okay? 1254 01:21:01,774 --> 01:21:03,442 Excuse me. 1255 01:21:05,652 --> 01:21:08,864 - You've hardly said a word. 1256 01:21:08,864 --> 01:21:11,158 - Please don't ask me to. 1257 01:21:11,158 --> 01:21:12,201 Look, I can't. 1258 01:21:12,201 --> 01:21:14,536 Like, I just... I really can't do it. 1259 01:21:14,536 --> 01:21:15,579 - Okay. 1260 01:21:15,579 --> 01:21:18,040 You know, she's gonna be out of action for a while, alright? 1261 01:21:18,040 --> 01:21:21,960 I can't be the only one holding this family together. 1262 01:21:21,960 --> 01:21:24,797 Why am I the only one that James can rely on here? 1263 01:21:24,797 --> 01:21:27,299 - Trust me, you're not holding anything together. 1264 01:21:29,551 --> 01:21:31,804 - Give me the goddamn scooter key. 1265 01:21:31,804 --> 01:21:33,305 - I'm the emergency contact? 1266 01:21:33,305 --> 01:21:34,932 - Nope. 1267 01:21:34,932 --> 01:21:37,559 Lisa. 1268 01:21:37,559 --> 01:21:39,061 [TICKING] 1269 01:21:50,739 --> 01:21:51,907 - Would you put that out? 1270 01:21:51,907 --> 01:21:53,909 You're disgusting. 1271 01:21:53,909 --> 01:21:56,870 - That's no way to speak to your nurse. 1272 01:21:56,870 --> 01:21:59,665 - I do have other stuff I normally do, you know. 1273 01:22:03,001 --> 01:22:05,337 Will you put it out? 1274 01:22:05,337 --> 01:22:07,047 - Make me. 1275 01:22:11,009 --> 01:22:13,137 - It's probably seeping into my wounds. 1276 01:22:13,137 --> 01:22:15,139 Poisoning me. 1277 01:22:15,139 --> 01:22:19,017 - It's right here so you can just reach out and grab it. 1278 01:22:19,017 --> 01:22:21,311 - You really are horrible. 1279 01:22:23,105 --> 01:22:26,024 - Come on, this is so boring. 1280 01:22:26,024 --> 01:22:27,734 I need a break. 1281 01:22:29,570 --> 01:22:32,823 - Where's your girlfriend? 1282 01:22:32,823 --> 01:22:35,617 - Busy. 1283 01:22:35,617 --> 01:22:37,327 Busy? 1284 01:22:37,327 --> 01:22:40,831 Trouble in paradise? 1285 01:22:40,831 --> 01:22:43,125 Shouldn't Billie be here? 1286 01:22:43,125 --> 01:22:44,168 What time is she getting here 1287 01:22:44,168 --> 01:22:47,045 on this particularly special Tuesday? 1288 01:22:58,015 --> 01:22:59,224 - Light breeze. 1289 01:23:00,267 --> 01:23:07,941 ♪ I'm faceless in the crowd That he faces ♪ 1290 01:23:07,941 --> 01:23:12,070 ♪ He faces me ♪ 1291 01:23:15,407 --> 01:23:18,994 ♪ Don't take What's taken down ♪ 1292 01:23:18,994 --> 01:23:22,998 ♪ Just be with ♪ 1293 01:23:22,998 --> 01:23:25,375 ♪ Just be with me ♪ 1294 01:23:25,375 --> 01:23:26,418 [KNOCK AT DOOR] 1295 01:23:27,794 --> 01:23:28,837 - What? 1296 01:23:28,837 --> 01:23:30,797 TOM: How come you're not at your ma's? 1297 01:23:30,797 --> 01:23:32,966 - I thought I was grounded. 1298 01:23:32,966 --> 01:23:34,218 - Not to help your debilitated mother, 1299 01:23:34,218 --> 01:23:35,844 you're not. 1300 01:23:35,844 --> 01:23:37,763 - James doesn't need me. 1301 01:23:37,763 --> 01:23:39,097 TOM: I know, I'm sure he's doing just fine 1302 01:23:39,097 --> 01:23:40,724 over there with Harry. 1303 01:23:40,724 --> 01:23:45,270 - There are others, plenty of others. 1304 01:23:45,270 --> 01:23:47,689 And don't you try and trick me again... 1305 01:23:47,689 --> 01:23:52,152 picking me up after school and taking me there. 1306 01:23:52,152 --> 01:23:54,404 Hijacking me or something. 1307 01:23:56,615 --> 01:23:58,742 Scooter chef man. 1308 01:23:58,742 --> 01:24:01,119 [GIGGLES] 1309 01:24:01,119 --> 01:24:02,579 TOM: Are you high? 1310 01:24:02,579 --> 01:24:04,248 Jesus, Billie. 1311 01:24:04,248 --> 01:24:07,167 [LAUGHS] 1312 01:24:07,167 --> 01:24:08,710 - Oh, c'mon. 1313 01:24:09,753 --> 01:24:11,046 Okay. 1314 01:24:11,046 --> 01:24:16,385 Look, I'm just doing what he's always wanted. 1315 01:24:16,385 --> 01:24:19,137 You know, I'm staying away. 1316 01:24:19,137 --> 01:24:21,682 - Don't test my patience on this, Bill. 1317 01:24:21,682 --> 01:24:23,934 Do you really wanna do this? 1318 01:24:23,934 --> 01:24:26,645 BILLIE: What are you going to do, Pops? 1319 01:24:26,645 --> 01:24:28,563 Double-ground me? 1320 01:24:33,819 --> 01:24:36,029 - Yeah, well, she should be here. 1321 01:24:36,029 --> 01:24:39,074 You guys have got a responsibility to each other. 1322 01:24:39,074 --> 01:24:41,994 What, like you with Frida? 1323 01:24:41,994 --> 01:24:43,245 - What do you mean? 1324 01:24:43,245 --> 01:24:44,621 We get along great. 1325 01:24:44,621 --> 01:24:46,999 - Yeah, because you only see her once a month. 1326 01:24:46,999 --> 01:24:50,294 - Yeah, and we still get along great. 1327 01:24:50,294 --> 01:24:52,087 - Because you get to come and go as you like 1328 01:24:52,087 --> 01:24:54,381 and she treats it like she should be grateful 1329 01:24:54,381 --> 01:24:56,592 that you've graced her with your presence. 1330 01:24:56,592 --> 01:25:00,262 - Ugh, I need a cigarette, okay? 1331 01:25:00,262 --> 01:25:01,972 Just sort your shit out with Billie, 1332 01:25:01,972 --> 01:25:04,433 and save us all a lot of trouble. 1333 01:25:05,559 --> 01:25:06,602 - Great. 1334 01:25:08,061 --> 01:25:10,147 - Oh, Harry. 1335 01:25:10,147 --> 01:25:11,606 - It wasn't me. 1336 01:25:11,606 --> 01:25:13,775 Must be the fuse again. 1337 01:25:13,775 --> 01:25:16,028 - Very funny, ha ha. 1338 01:25:16,028 --> 01:25:18,530 - Oh pipe down, Sport. 1339 01:25:21,199 --> 01:25:23,452 [TICKING] 1340 01:25:24,786 --> 01:25:27,080 - Oh, no, just making sure. 1341 01:25:27,080 --> 01:25:28,498 Great. 1342 01:25:29,916 --> 01:25:31,835 Yep. 1343 01:25:31,835 --> 01:25:34,087 No. Three o'clock's great. 1344 01:25:44,973 --> 01:25:47,809 Before I come in, did you know 1345 01:25:47,809 --> 01:25:50,646 I go by the name James these days? 1346 01:25:53,106 --> 01:25:55,192 Yeah. I shouldn't be surprised... 1347 01:25:55,192 --> 01:25:57,444 word gets out. 1348 01:25:57,444 --> 01:25:59,529 Okay, I'll see you then. 1349 01:25:59,529 --> 01:26:01,490 Cheers. 1350 01:26:32,687 --> 01:26:34,272 - How are you? 1351 01:26:35,315 --> 01:26:36,900 - Okay. 1352 01:26:44,366 --> 01:26:45,450 - Billie. 1353 01:26:49,287 --> 01:26:50,705 No offence... 1354 01:26:51,748 --> 01:26:54,084 but your dad is a scary dude. 1355 01:26:54,084 --> 01:26:55,710 I don't want to cross him. 1356 01:26:55,710 --> 01:26:57,212 - Who cares? 1357 01:26:57,212 --> 01:26:59,548 I don't have to do what he says. 1358 01:27:00,590 --> 01:27:02,050 - Yeah. 1359 01:27:06,012 --> 01:27:08,140 - Have you heard from Jas? 1360 01:27:08,140 --> 01:27:09,182 - No. 1361 01:27:09,182 --> 01:27:12,227 - She's not answering my phone calls. 1362 01:27:12,227 --> 01:27:15,188 - Yeah. I think she's blocked you. 1363 01:27:19,860 --> 01:27:22,571 - If I gave you a message, would you pass it on? 1364 01:27:22,571 --> 01:27:25,449 You know, something to apologize or something? 1365 01:27:25,449 --> 01:27:26,575 - Look... 1366 01:27:28,702 --> 01:27:30,036 I don't know. 1367 01:27:44,301 --> 01:27:47,387 [TICKING] 1368 01:28:06,031 --> 01:28:09,284 - You said you needed it tonight. 1369 01:28:09,284 --> 01:28:10,952 - Yes. 1370 01:28:35,477 --> 01:28:37,854 - How many of these are there? 1371 01:28:37,854 --> 01:28:39,356 - Just that one. 1372 01:28:43,902 --> 01:28:47,572 - Well, I can see why Harry took it off you. 1373 01:28:47,572 --> 01:28:49,866 - He wasn't protecting me. 1374 01:28:49,866 --> 01:28:51,451 - This is... 1375 01:28:54,538 --> 01:28:55,956 something. 1376 01:29:01,586 --> 01:29:03,380 Why record this? 1377 01:29:04,589 --> 01:29:07,092 - Why record your transition? 1378 01:29:07,092 --> 01:29:08,802 Your trip to America? 1379 01:29:09,844 --> 01:29:13,306 - To be able to go back. 1380 01:29:13,306 --> 01:29:16,351 To see things I couldn't see at the time... 1381 01:29:16,351 --> 01:29:18,770 the small changes. 1382 01:29:18,770 --> 01:29:20,564 To show you. 1383 01:29:26,820 --> 01:29:29,573 - You look exactly the same. 1384 01:29:32,701 --> 01:29:34,244 - Do I? 1385 01:29:34,244 --> 01:29:37,789 - This whole year was about becoming a man. 1386 01:29:37,789 --> 01:29:39,457 - I know. 1387 01:29:39,457 --> 01:29:42,794 - You said you'd take testosterone. 1388 01:29:42,794 --> 01:29:46,298 You said you'd get a male chest. 1389 01:29:46,298 --> 01:29:48,383 - Well, I got surgery and it feels great, 1390 01:29:48,383 --> 01:29:52,220 but without testosterone, it's going to take awhile. 1391 01:29:52,220 --> 01:29:56,182 - I agreed to this because I thought 1392 01:29:56,182 --> 01:29:57,934 you were going to become a man. 1393 01:29:57,934 --> 01:29:59,269 - I was. 1394 01:29:59,269 --> 01:30:01,146 I am. 1395 01:30:01,146 --> 01:30:04,816 - So when the fuck do you change? 1396 01:30:04,816 --> 01:30:07,569 - It's not just about the physical. 1397 01:30:07,569 --> 01:30:08,737 - It never ends. 1398 01:30:08,737 --> 01:30:10,405 - No, it doesn't. 1399 01:30:13,241 --> 01:30:15,702 This is why I still need to sort some stuff out. 1400 01:30:17,579 --> 01:30:20,665 - Where have I heard that before? 1401 01:30:20,665 --> 01:30:22,709 Do you need another year? 1402 01:30:24,294 --> 01:30:27,380 What could you possibly have to sort out? 1403 01:30:27,380 --> 01:30:28,715 - You. 1404 01:30:31,426 --> 01:30:34,012 I need to sort things out with you. 1405 01:30:36,473 --> 01:30:38,308 - Can I just have it back? 1406 01:30:48,109 --> 01:30:49,986 - You want this for school, right? 1407 01:30:49,986 --> 01:30:51,863 This art project. 1408 01:30:51,863 --> 01:30:54,074 - Does it matter? 1409 01:30:54,074 --> 01:30:56,326 - It's dangerous. 1410 01:30:56,326 --> 01:30:58,328 - It's not what you think. 1411 01:30:58,328 --> 01:30:59,704 - It doesn't matter what I think. 1412 01:30:59,704 --> 01:31:01,956 You shouldn't have what's on there. 1413 01:31:08,630 --> 01:31:10,423 You know what I should do? 1414 01:31:11,967 --> 01:31:14,678 I should burn this. 1415 01:31:14,678 --> 01:31:16,680 I should go through everything you own 1416 01:31:16,680 --> 01:31:18,973 and burn it all. 1417 01:31:18,973 --> 01:31:22,060 - If you do anything to that tape, 1418 01:31:22,060 --> 01:31:24,270 I will walk out that door 1419 01:31:24,270 --> 01:31:28,483 and happily not speak to you ever again. 1420 01:31:34,072 --> 01:31:35,740 - If this gets out... 1421 01:31:37,909 --> 01:31:39,411 Please. 1422 01:31:45,959 --> 01:31:47,001 - Don't you dare. 1423 01:31:47,001 --> 01:31:48,920 - I'm sorry. 1424 01:32:16,448 --> 01:32:20,076 [CRIES OUT] 1425 01:32:21,828 --> 01:32:24,289 [TICKING] 1426 01:32:38,303 --> 01:32:40,764 BILLIE: When we were here... 1427 01:32:40,764 --> 01:32:42,599 this place... 1428 01:32:44,058 --> 01:32:46,102 things made sense. 1429 01:32:54,027 --> 01:32:55,403 This is my mum. 1430 01:32:56,446 --> 01:32:58,573 This is what his back looks like. 1431 01:33:19,886 --> 01:33:22,555 [TICKING] 1432 01:33:31,314 --> 01:33:32,357 There are so many things 1433 01:33:32,357 --> 01:33:35,860 that I should have said before now. 1434 01:33:35,860 --> 01:33:38,780 You know, that I should've told you about but... 1435 01:33:38,780 --> 01:33:40,073 I felt stuck or something 1436 01:33:40,073 --> 01:33:42,534 and I didn't feel like I could talk. 1437 01:33:45,370 --> 01:33:46,746 Fuck. 1438 01:33:48,248 --> 01:33:51,334 It is a really big thing to keep from your daughter. 1439 01:33:54,212 --> 01:33:57,090 And then Tuesdays became our special time. 1440 01:34:07,725 --> 01:34:09,602 All this stuff happened... 1441 01:34:09,602 --> 01:34:11,729 you know, important stuff. 1442 01:34:11,729 --> 01:34:12,772 It happens all the time. 1443 01:35:14,709 --> 01:35:16,085 Jasmin? 1444 01:35:19,923 --> 01:35:22,133 - There's food left if you want it. 1445 01:35:39,943 --> 01:35:43,029 [TICKING] 1446 01:36:22,652 --> 01:36:25,613 [BACKGROUND TV] 1447 01:36:27,532 --> 01:36:28,574 [DOOR CLOSES] 1448 01:36:38,042 --> 01:36:40,712 BILLIE: [RECORDING] ...as the population reached seven billion, 1449 01:36:40,712 --> 01:36:42,255 and then in Antarctica, 1450 01:36:42,255 --> 01:36:45,550 a glacier the size of New York split off, 1451 01:36:45,550 --> 01:36:47,510 or it nearly split off. 1452 01:36:47,510 --> 01:36:49,637 You know, there was all that Arab spring stuff. 1453 01:36:49,637 --> 01:36:52,473 And Occupy Wall Street and I don't know, 1454 01:36:52,473 --> 01:36:54,392 everything in Egypt. 1455 01:36:54,392 --> 01:36:59,105 I mean, you became a year 12, Josh grew three different beards 1456 01:36:59,105 --> 01:37:03,109 and my mum became a man. 1457 01:37:03,109 --> 01:37:04,485 All this stuff happened... 1458 01:37:04,485 --> 01:37:06,070 you know, important stuff. 1459 01:37:06,070 --> 01:37:08,197 And it happens all the time. 1460 01:37:08,197 --> 01:37:09,240 You know, how do... 1461 01:37:09,240 --> 01:37:12,118 how do you know what bits really matter? 1462 01:37:12,118 --> 01:37:15,830 Back at the start, I didn't know how to be, 1463 01:37:15,830 --> 01:37:21,544 you know, how supportive, how angry, how worried... 1464 01:37:22,879 --> 01:37:26,966 And you, you just seemed so clear. 1465 01:37:26,966 --> 01:37:28,676 I mean, you both did. 1466 01:37:28,676 --> 01:37:29,844 You know, clear about what you liked 1467 01:37:29,844 --> 01:37:32,180 and what you felt. 1468 01:37:32,180 --> 01:37:33,598 I wasn't. 1469 01:37:34,891 --> 01:37:37,143 And sex... 1470 01:37:37,143 --> 01:37:38,269 still didn't make sense 1471 01:37:38,269 --> 01:37:41,731 but it did feel great and weird and... 1472 01:37:41,731 --> 01:37:43,191 At least I didn't feel like the Billie 1473 01:37:43,191 --> 01:37:45,485 that James is trying to get away from. 1474 01:37:45,485 --> 01:37:47,987 I felt like myself. 1475 01:37:47,987 --> 01:37:49,030 I just... 1476 01:37:49,030 --> 01:37:51,574 I didn't want to talk about my mum. 1477 01:37:51,574 --> 01:37:52,658 And how it would be easier for him 1478 01:37:52,658 --> 01:37:53,701 if I wasn't around 1479 01:37:53,701 --> 01:37:56,245 or probably even better for him 1480 01:37:56,245 --> 01:37:59,916 if I didn't even exist. 1481 01:37:59,916 --> 01:38:02,960 I wanted to know about you, and Josh. 1482 01:38:02,960 --> 01:38:05,088 [TICKING] 1483 01:38:23,481 --> 01:38:24,607 WOMAN: Look this section here. 1484 01:38:24,607 --> 01:38:26,651 It's really obvious that they are having sex. 1485 01:38:26,651 --> 01:38:28,694 MAN: It's incredibly graphic. 1486 01:38:28,694 --> 01:38:31,155 And how much other footage is out there? 1487 01:38:31,155 --> 01:38:32,532 This is supposed to be a school project. 1488 01:38:32,532 --> 01:38:33,699 What the hell is going on? 1489 01:38:33,699 --> 01:38:34,909 - Alright. Okay, I agree that this thing's... 1490 01:38:34,909 --> 01:38:37,411 BILLIE: [RECORDING] ...like the Billie that James is trying to get away from. 1491 01:38:37,411 --> 01:38:38,454 I felt like myself. 1492 01:38:42,583 --> 01:38:44,085 - You need to get rid of it. 1493 01:38:44,085 --> 01:38:45,128 If this got out online... 1494 01:38:45,128 --> 01:38:46,254 - Why would it get online? 1495 01:38:46,254 --> 01:38:48,464 - You're having sex on camera. 1496 01:38:48,464 --> 01:38:50,716 - It wasn't meant for anyone else. 1497 01:38:50,716 --> 01:38:52,969 I can't believe you'd do this. 1498 01:38:52,969 --> 01:38:55,263 - But you do understand why you need to get rid of it? 1499 01:38:55,263 --> 01:38:56,597 - No. 1500 01:38:56,597 --> 01:38:58,432 - You know we can take this to the police. 1501 01:38:58,432 --> 01:38:59,851 - But that'll get them all in trouble. 1502 01:38:59,851 --> 01:39:01,602 Billie was under the age of consent. 1503 01:39:01,602 --> 01:39:02,854 - Are you blackmailing us? 1504 01:39:02,854 --> 01:39:03,938 - Not at all. 1505 01:39:03,938 --> 01:39:05,398 I'm saying that bringing the police 1506 01:39:05,398 --> 01:39:07,608 is going to ruin all their lives, 1507 01:39:07,608 --> 01:39:11,946 so we need to convince Billie to destroy the footage herself. 1508 01:39:11,946 --> 01:39:14,949 - Even if she agrees to it, how can we take her word for it? 1509 01:39:14,949 --> 01:39:17,243 TOM: Look guys, I'll make sure she does it, alright? 1510 01:39:17,243 --> 01:39:19,162 - Maybe we can be there, so we can make sure. 1511 01:39:19,162 --> 01:39:21,831 - But my point is that we can never be sure. 1512 01:39:21,831 --> 01:39:25,168 - So, you're basically saying you can't trust me. 1513 01:39:25,168 --> 01:39:27,086 - I am trying to explain 1514 01:39:27,086 --> 01:39:29,589 the impossible position we're in. 1515 01:39:35,178 --> 01:39:37,096 Look. 1516 01:39:37,096 --> 01:39:40,183 After this, you won't have to listen to me anymore, 1517 01:39:40,183 --> 01:39:41,851 I swear. 1518 01:39:41,851 --> 01:39:43,352 You won't even have to have me in your life 1519 01:39:43,352 --> 01:39:44,687 if that's what you want. 1520 01:39:44,687 --> 01:39:46,230 But if you keep going like this 1521 01:39:46,230 --> 01:39:49,984 you're not going to have much else. 1522 01:39:52,236 --> 01:39:55,698 - You just had to give to Jasmin. 1523 01:39:55,698 --> 01:39:59,410 How could you watch it? 1524 01:39:59,410 --> 01:40:02,497 JASMIN: Because I showed her. 1525 01:40:02,497 --> 01:40:06,209 What am I supposed to do with all this? 1526 01:40:06,209 --> 01:40:09,545 I didn't know what to do so I showed Mum. 1527 01:40:09,545 --> 01:40:11,839 - And then she called us, eventually. 1528 01:40:17,720 --> 01:40:18,804 - There are worse things in the world 1529 01:40:18,804 --> 01:40:22,099 than having a mum that wants to be someone. 1530 01:40:22,099 --> 01:40:24,685 Trust me. 1531 01:40:24,685 --> 01:40:27,313 I wanted to hang out with you. 1532 01:40:27,313 --> 01:40:30,274 I liked the camera. 1533 01:40:30,274 --> 01:40:35,655 But now, I don't want anyone else to see this. 1534 01:40:43,788 --> 01:40:46,832 [CRYING] 1535 01:40:54,215 --> 01:40:56,050 [TICKING] 1536 01:40:57,134 --> 01:40:58,469 HARRY: Hit it. 1537 01:40:58,469 --> 01:40:59,595 Hit it. 1538 01:40:59,595 --> 01:41:00,638 Hit it. 1539 01:41:00,638 --> 01:41:01,722 Hit it. 1540 01:41:01,722 --> 01:41:02,765 Again. 1541 01:41:02,765 --> 01:41:05,184 Hit it. 1542 01:41:06,727 --> 01:41:07,770 Hit it. 1543 01:41:07,770 --> 01:41:08,980 Hit it. 1544 01:41:08,980 --> 01:41:10,314 Keep going. 1545 01:41:10,314 --> 01:41:11,566 Hit it. 1546 01:41:11,566 --> 01:41:12,942 Hit it. 1547 01:41:15,361 --> 01:41:19,699 So, you got your fuck buddies back then? 1548 01:41:19,699 --> 01:41:21,242 - I got rid of everything. 1549 01:41:21,242 --> 01:41:23,452 - Kiddie porn free now, are we? 1550 01:41:24,704 --> 01:41:26,038 - Am I? 1551 01:41:28,207 --> 01:41:30,960 - You think that I've still got something? 1552 01:41:32,670 --> 01:41:34,046 Frida! 1553 01:41:35,840 --> 01:41:38,217 - Just tell me. 1554 01:41:38,217 --> 01:41:40,553 - C'mon, why worry? 1555 01:41:40,553 --> 01:41:42,597 You're in the clear now. 1556 01:41:42,597 --> 01:41:45,224 - No more games, Harry, please. 1557 01:41:46,475 --> 01:41:49,270 - Later, when all this is over, right, wouldn't it 1558 01:41:49,270 --> 01:41:53,149 be great to just have one tiny piece left, you know? 1559 01:41:53,149 --> 01:41:55,484 Fuck 'em. No-one's going to know. 1560 01:41:56,652 --> 01:41:58,738 - Why are you doing this? 1561 01:41:58,738 --> 01:42:00,781 - Frida, will you stop that! 1562 01:42:04,118 --> 01:42:05,620 What do want me to say? 1563 01:42:05,620 --> 01:42:07,580 - How about you say you don't have anything? 1564 01:42:07,580 --> 01:42:09,081 - Okay, well, how about anything I say 1565 01:42:09,081 --> 01:42:10,124 you won't believe. 1566 01:42:10,124 --> 01:42:11,959 How about that? 1567 01:42:11,959 --> 01:42:13,252 - Yeah. 1568 01:42:13,252 --> 01:42:14,670 You're right. 1569 01:42:14,670 --> 01:42:15,796 That's why we need to go right now 1570 01:42:15,796 --> 01:42:17,840 so you can show me you don't have anything. 1571 01:42:17,840 --> 01:42:19,842 - I can't even if I wanted to. 1572 01:42:19,842 --> 01:42:21,844 I was lumped with Frida, and then I've got sound check, 1573 01:42:21,844 --> 01:42:23,888 and then I've got the gig. 1574 01:42:23,888 --> 01:42:25,389 Go TO the house yourself and check. 1575 01:42:25,389 --> 01:42:26,807 I don't care. 1576 01:42:26,807 --> 01:42:29,143 - You know James will be there. 1577 01:42:29,143 --> 01:42:30,394 - So? 1578 01:42:30,394 --> 01:42:32,563 - I'm not going on my own. 1579 01:42:32,563 --> 01:42:33,606 - Are you just going to avoid him 1580 01:42:33,606 --> 01:42:35,733 for the rest of your life now, are you? 1581 01:42:38,402 --> 01:42:40,613 TOM: Why? You don't trust him? 1582 01:42:40,613 --> 01:42:42,281 - Well, do you? 1583 01:42:42,281 --> 01:42:43,324 - Well, you're going to have to go 1584 01:42:43,324 --> 01:42:44,909 and look for yourself, right? 1585 01:42:44,909 --> 01:42:46,827 - I can't go over there. 1586 01:42:46,827 --> 01:42:49,538 I'm not going over there. 1587 01:42:49,538 --> 01:42:50,831 - Dude, I gotta go to work. 1588 01:42:50,831 --> 01:42:51,957 - Do you have to go? 1589 01:42:51,957 --> 01:42:54,085 - Fuck yeah, I've got to go to work, Bill. 1590 01:42:54,085 --> 01:42:56,504 You know, they're dying over there without me. 1591 01:42:56,504 --> 01:42:59,215 I've wasted too much time with all this shit. 1592 01:43:01,592 --> 01:43:02,843 Sorry. 1593 01:43:02,843 --> 01:43:04,887 I'm tired, alright? Look, I'll go. 1594 01:43:06,305 --> 01:43:08,516 I'll go right after work. 1595 01:43:08,516 --> 01:43:10,601 In the meantime, don't wait up, kid. 1596 01:43:10,601 --> 01:43:13,729 Watch a movie, or read a book... 1597 01:43:13,729 --> 01:43:15,815 Just take care of yourself, eh? 1598 01:43:24,740 --> 01:43:27,993 [TV VOICE IN BACKGROUND] 1599 01:44:06,073 --> 01:44:07,241 JASMIN: Billie. 1600 01:44:09,410 --> 01:44:11,203 - You came. 1601 01:44:13,372 --> 01:44:15,040 I wasn't sure. 1602 01:44:16,250 --> 01:44:17,626 Oh God. 1603 01:44:18,669 --> 01:44:20,588 - Of course I came. 1604 01:44:57,750 --> 01:44:59,877 It's Tuesday. 1605 01:45:25,528 --> 01:45:27,821 Can't stay here forever. 1606 01:45:47,675 --> 01:45:48,717 - I'll keep it quick 1607 01:45:48,717 --> 01:45:51,345 so I don't embarrass myself too much. 1608 01:45:51,345 --> 01:45:53,389 Or cry. 1609 01:45:56,725 --> 01:45:58,978 You watch your child grow older 1610 01:45:58,978 --> 01:46:00,813 and know that they've changed 1611 01:46:00,813 --> 01:46:07,820 but don't know how or what or exactly when it happened. 1612 01:46:08,904 --> 01:46:11,198 It's hard to pinpoint the when, isn't it? 1613 01:46:13,492 --> 01:46:16,161 But you're actually pretty good at it... 1614 01:46:16,161 --> 01:46:19,415 knowing the how or what or when. 1615 01:46:20,708 --> 01:46:23,043 Much better than I ever was. 1616 01:46:25,170 --> 01:46:28,507 So... 1617 01:46:28,507 --> 01:46:32,469 I hope you're around a lot longer to keep me up to date. 1618 01:46:39,143 --> 01:46:40,561 - Alright. 1619 01:46:41,604 --> 01:46:43,939 With the cheese it kind of like counter-balances it. 1620 01:46:43,939 --> 01:46:45,190 - Balances out so it's like the creaminess 1621 01:46:45,190 --> 01:46:49,320 and the broth base. 1622 01:46:49,320 --> 01:46:52,448 - Sir, you're up. 1623 01:46:52,448 --> 01:46:53,490 Sir, you're up. 1624 01:46:53,490 --> 01:46:54,533 - Cup of tea. 1625 01:46:55,576 --> 01:46:57,786 - Bring us one flat white, thank you. 1626 01:47:20,851 --> 01:47:21,894 - How was school? 1627 01:47:39,495 --> 01:47:41,538 James visited earlier. 1628 01:47:42,790 --> 01:47:44,291 He looks good. 1629 01:47:46,835 --> 01:47:49,963 He's slow, you know, but he gets there. 1630 01:47:51,840 --> 01:47:54,343 He just put it off for so long. 1631 01:47:56,053 --> 01:47:58,263 - Please don't tell me it was all for my benefit. 1632 01:47:58,263 --> 01:47:59,682 - Come on, man... 1633 01:47:59,682 --> 01:48:01,558 you loved Jane. 1634 01:48:01,558 --> 01:48:03,060 Unconditionally. 1635 01:48:03,060 --> 01:48:05,688 You idolised her. 1636 01:48:05,688 --> 01:48:07,981 What mother would want to change that? 1637 01:48:09,817 --> 01:48:11,527 You certainly didn't. 1638 01:48:18,617 --> 01:48:21,704 You know, most people do things with the best intentions 1639 01:48:21,704 --> 01:48:23,914 and sometimes it just doesn't work out. 1640 01:48:24,957 --> 01:48:29,420 Things happen, you make a stupid decision... 1641 01:48:29,420 --> 01:48:31,088 You get lazy. 1642 01:48:32,423 --> 01:48:34,466 You crash your scooter. 1643 01:48:35,759 --> 01:48:37,469 That's life, Bill. 1644 01:48:41,890 --> 01:48:43,183 - It still hurts. 1645 01:48:44,226 --> 01:48:45,602 - Sure. 1646 01:48:52,943 --> 01:48:55,112 You don't want what you had before... 1647 01:48:56,405 --> 01:49:00,909 knowing only a few pieces of someone. 1648 01:49:00,909 --> 01:49:02,202 James has shown you, Bill. 1649 01:49:02,202 --> 01:49:04,204 He's not hiding anything. 1650 01:49:07,040 --> 01:49:09,793 You have a chance to know who your mother really is. 1651 01:49:11,587 --> 01:49:14,048 And that's when you can choose to love him. 1652 01:49:15,674 --> 01:49:17,176 Or not. 1653 01:49:17,176 --> 01:49:19,887 You can make that choice every day, if you like. 1654 01:49:23,182 --> 01:49:25,142 But there's no other way. 1655 01:50:09,061 --> 01:50:10,104 [KNOCK ON DOOR] 1656 01:51:01,697 --> 01:51:03,574 - Okay. 1657 01:51:03,574 --> 01:51:04,867 I'm ready. 1658 01:51:33,979 --> 01:51:37,774 [♪♪♪] 1659 01:51:42,571 --> 01:51:45,782 [SINGING] 1660 01:54:03,128 --> 01:54:06,256 [SONG FADES OUT]